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Trax's Quarters - Love lost pros and cons - Seeking Advice of others Attention Counselor ((repost)))

Posted May 20, 2021, 5:11 a.m. by Ensign Trax Elbrun Suder (Medical Officer) (David Robinson Jr)

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Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Dinui xi’Indrai (Chief Counseling Officer) in Trax’s Quarters - Love lost - Seeking Advice of others Attention Counselor
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Trax sent a brief message from his padd to the couselor ssince he heard rumors she was free from what she was doing. To see if she was free to meet up to talk to her. He havn’t recalled if he met this counselor or not. as his mind was still processing all of the data from the others he was lucky to talk to. As he closed on his cabin door as it opened for him to enter as he moved to the replicator to get a Large pitcher of iced tea and two glasses just in case the counselor might like a glass as well. As he grabbed the tray with the pitcher and glasses and brought it to the coffee table as he placed the tray down and he pulled out his tricorder from his pocket along with the padd from his smock as he pulled it off and layed it on the arm of the couch as he took a seat in his comfy recliner chair ” Computer soft light music in background.” Trax said calmly as he settled into his favorte recliner chair and poured himself a glass of iced tea as he added a wedge of lemon as he sat back and took a long sip of the tea. “MMM” escaped his lips. As the drink made its way down his throat. As he sat the glass on the table next to the chair and cclosed his eyes a moment as he let his mental barriers down to relax throughly. As he got lost in the mellow music of old earth origions something called classical country music. Curerntly a singer named crystal gayle singing softly in the background. Crystal Gayle: Ready for the Times to Get Better. Trax got lost in the music and the lyrics. As his mind thought of Raxx his current imzadi.

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Denooy finished writing her notes on a file and got a notification that Doctor sudar wanted to talk. She checked if she had any upcoming appointments and after confirming that she had the time to speak with him, she sent a message back to sudar that she would be happy to talk with him. The last time she remembered speaking with him had been during a meeting with Sahara and others.

She settled her files and signed off her console. Denooy walked out of the office and made her way to the corridor and the nearest lift. After calling out the deck section closest to Doctor sudar location.

Denooy rang the chime and waited for a response.

Denooy zee In Dra, Chief Counselor

Trax opened his eyes calmly as he spoke calmly and quickly. “Come in Please!” Trax said calmly to the door. as he stood up from his chair as he waited for the doors to open A moment later. Hello Counselor Please come in.” Trax said politely to her as he could as the music continued in the background of the main area of his quarters. Please have a seat counselor would you care for some Iced sweet tea or would you like something else?” tax said kindly to her as he waited for her to come in and get comfortable.

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Denooy smiled, “Ice tea would be fine thank you,” she said as she got settled in the offered chair, “What can I help you with Doctor Sudar?” she added as she regarded him wondering the reason behind his summons. Not that she minded in the least, helping the crew was her favorite parts of her job.

Denooy zee In Dra, Chief Counselor

Trax poured out a glass of tea for the counselor. As he sighed hard almost wanting to forget the whole thing. “Well, there has been a lot going on with me along with the banishment or exile from Betazed. ” Trax said with a mute face. He sighed again my mother made a mess of things for me and I know in part it’s my fault too.” Trax said trying not to let his emotions to take over. I have thought a lot of drastic changes to my life from leaving Starfleet. giving in on my life and return to Betazed and become a doner....” Trax said as he started to stammer. “And lose everything I care for or love.” She could feel strong emotions from him. It was literally tearing him apart inside.

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Denooy nodded her head, “I would say if you love something that you feel it worth the fight then fight for it. If it is here or whereever else. Sometimes family is not your blood that matters but the family you build from your friends and others you are close too. It might be not traditional or proper but sometimes it is better to do what makes you happy.” she said the paused to add, “If you know that by going back you would be unhappy then don’t do it. We have one life it is better to live it happy or trying to find happiness than to be stuck unhappy to make others happy. A bit selfish to say but true none the less.” Denooy said looking at him.

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Denooy Ze In Dra, Chief Counselor

O O C sorry for the long wait Family stuff, thank you for finding the thread and bumping it for me to find easily.

Trax was still feeling more lost by this. “Counselor I thank you for your thoughts and help its much appreciated.” Trax said calmly to her. “As he tried to let all of her words sink in. “This situation is becoming too disheartening.” Trax said with his mind and heart started to break more. Trax started to feel like he was getting a headache or migraine which I know it is rare for humanoids. trax thought to himself as he waited for the counselor to respond.

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“It is a difficult situation but, you need to do what you feel is the very best for you and your happiness. If that means staying or going that is your decision and no one can make it for you. I would suggest if you are not certain that you make a list of all the pros and cons of what you want versus what you think you should do.” she paused and added, “Make as many lists as it takes for you see how it would affect you and effect your friends and family.” Denooy added as she looked at him, “When you have done that we can talk more unless you want me to help you start on the lists now?”

Denooy Ze In Dra, Chief Counselor

“I understand counselor!” Trax commented with a cold emotion like a Vulcan. He was definitely locking his feeling down. “A list is a good idea if you wish to help me counselor that’s fine my mind is pretty preoccupied I might need a focus.” Trax said flatly and cold with little emotion coming from him now. but there was emotion but it was now buried deep. might be dangerous to him in his mental state.

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Denooy looked at him her expression concerned, “If I have offended you by speaking plainly I am sorry but I am trying to help. I can stay or go as you feel is best.” his manner had gone from open to nearly without emotion in a short span of time and it wasn’t what she had intended when offering her advice let alone what she thought he needed to hear.

Denooy Ze In Dra, Chief Counselor

“You’re fine counselor !” Trax said finally to her. “I know you are trying to help me and I appreciate that.” He said as his mental blocks fell free. As his mind was now open and more at ease and relaxed. “I should try to make a list of all the good and bad.” Trax said as he grabbed several PAdds and labeled them as he started to do them one at a time.”Care to help me?Counselor?” Trax said as he was freer now.

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“Start with what you want for you, the good and bad from that.” she said lightly, “Do you want me to write or just listen?” Dinui wasn’t sure how he wanted her help and she didn’t want to assume anything. His mood had gone back and forth and she wanted to be certain she was actually helping him and not just causing him more distress.

Dinui xi’Indrai, Chief Counselor

“I guess help me set up the pads set up properly so that I am placing all the items on the right lists.” Trax said a bit shaken by all of this. As he handed her the padds to her.

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Dinui took the PaDD’s and wrote on the first one, Personnal wants Pros and Cons, and handed it back, she followed up with Family wants Pros and Cons, offering that back to him. Then she wrote, Anything Else you think matters Pros and Cons. She gave a wry grin as she offered the PaDD’s back to him and sat back, waiting to see if he still wanted help or not.

Dinui xi’Indrai, Chief Counselor
“thank you for your time counselor I will work on these now. I know your busy person especially trying to get yourself settled.” Troy said with a small fleeing smile. “I will chat with you more later.” Troy said kindly to her. “If you need anything let me know.” He said as he started to focus on the first of the padds.

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Trax started on the first padd. (personal wants pros and cons.

Trax took his time and these lists were tough, to say the least, he found himself repeating himself at times on the list. He wondered if there was another way to deal with this. As he sighed hard and focused on the lists and PAdds

Pros Cons

Wanting my own life Mother controlling all aspects of life and love

Want to love who I choose Mother wants to arrange my love life

Wants to have the freedom to be who I am Mother is not wanting me o have freedom

Wants a relationship with mother without meddling No Relationship with mother

wants freedom No Freedom

wants the freedom to marry who he chose No right to chose (arranged marriage to a woman)

Wants control of his life and destiny No Control of life or destiny (Controlled by mother)

He moved on to the next padd if he remembered anything else he would go back to it later.

family wants pro or cons.
Cons
Pros

Family approves of me and my life Family stuck in the middle

no freedom Mother controls everything

Family is open to his wants and needs Mother is closed to his need wants or desires

Family does not care if I am in arrange marriage mother wats arranged marriage

family does not want control of seed Mother wants to control trax seed

family don’t want the loss of freedom loss of freedom

Stay in Starfleet leaving Starfleet

the family was ok for me to be what I was or am Mother disapproves

being closer to family will tear family apart

Having independence loss of independence

Making his own choices loss of making my own decisions

Freedom to live and want to be Loss of where I want to be or live

having a future not having a future

He put the padd down and started to cry. He still can’t believe that his mother would do something like this and cause so much pain and anguish. He felt like giving up but he knew that was not an option and he knew if the trauma continued it could cause problems for him. As he tried to replace the down face with a braver one as he finished of the lists and placed them on the table by the door so he can go over them later to see if he could add more or not.

As he started to straighten up his quarters. Packing up things that were not needed any longer to him As he grabbed a small storage crate and started storing the items one the betazoid chime, the family photos of his mother he left a few family photos like his siblings and uncles and aunts and friends were left to grace him in spirit. he placed other trinkets and items in the crate then sealed it and placed it in the closet. He removed anything he did not care for in his quarters like art that did not conform to his tastes and other nicknacks. By the time he was done the room was rather spartan.

He walked to the replicator. “A samarian sunset and he tapped on a few keys on the replicator as a display came up to offer a selection of curtains and styles to choose from as he was looking through them the drink materialized on the shelf as he casually grabbed it and took a long hard sip of the beverage. “There those will do nicely.” trax said kindly. as he gave the dimensions of the windows in his quarters to the computer.

He took another sip of his drink and placed it to the side out of the way so as not to spill it. as the replicator started replicating the items he asked for then he took the one series of curtains and placed them on the living room couch and then placed one by the dining area and the other sets in his bedroom.

He started in the dining room since there was one window there as he installed the brackets and curtains and rod together before hanging them up then straightening them out. “Boy, that did make a difference.” He said to himself as he moved to the living area to deal with the windows there then to the bedroom as he continued his redecorating as he went back to the replicator and ordered a new pillow and blanket for his bed.

As he went back and got them changed as well before returning back to the dining area to retrieve his drink then moved to the living room to see what he could do with adding some more homie touches there as he thought of a fireplace.

=/\= Trax to engineering I need to speak with an engineer when he has a bit of free time? I have a few engineering questions for him. =/\= Trax said kindly as the request was given he closed the channel. As he took a seat and looked out at the space station there in the view. He sighed hard as he got lost in the view. of the majestic-looking station and the nearby space.

A few minutes later an engineering officer arrived as he rang the chime. Trax forced himself to go away from the view As he walked to the door as it opened. “ Ensign Scott reporting as ordered doctor. ” the man said kindly to the doctor.

“Welcome Ensign please come in. I was wondering if it was possible to install a fireplace in my quarters? Since you were an engineer I figured you would know more than I do about this?” Trax said calmly to the man as he took a sip of his drink again.

“I believe its possible doctor but I will confer with the chief engineer about the question and request about installing such an item in your quarters.” Ensign scoot looked where the doctor wished it to be there is a power conduit there and I don’t see any issues with such an item. Trax gave the officer a padd that showed the type of fireplace he wished for. But I will get back with you shortly about this.” the engineer smiled as he left to talk to the chief.

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