CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

Posted Sept. 16, 2019, 9:07 p.m. by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) (BJ Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

Posted by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) in CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

Posted by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) in CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office: Janzen and Tralla

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Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

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Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

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Posted by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Captain Tralla Zoarhi (Captain) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Commander BJ Janzen (Scientist/Mission Specialist) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Lissan Zenobia (Counselor) in CNS Office (Attn. Janzen)
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How old is your daughter, Captain?” Lissan tilted her head slightly, her gaze as curious as it was sympathetic. “Children are privvy to trouble, especially those with Andorian in their blood. Our people are known to act on impulse and feed off of emotion, perhaps she is reacting to your emotion or bouncing off a deeper displeasure of her own.. something she doesn’t know how to process?” She spitballed.

Dr. Lissan, CNS

That was good to know. That was one of the things that drew him to Tralla. He loved her passion. That did sometime backfire. “She’d be around 9 or 10 now. At least I think so.”

Janzen

Zenobia nodded to Janzen, considering the girl’s youth.

“Yeah, she’s 10 years old now as for the other thing you mentioned I don’t know maybe she senses that I am not happy about how bad a parent I have been” she sighed “Do you think it might be a good idea for me to bring her to see you? She has been to see quite a few counselors so I am also worried that might be part of the problem” she said sadly

Tralla

If she need someone to talk to, who isn’t family, you are more than welcome to bring her to me. Although, it must be her choice. She may be a child, but she must have some autonomy in her own life, or she might grow to feel trapped.” Lissan returned, tilting her head. “Honesty is essential with your children, but you may be right..it is possible she is reacting to the emotion your putting off. Perhaps try seeming happier around her? Try to create an environment she wants to be in; one you all want to be in.

Lissan, CNS

“There is another possibility one I had hoped was not an Issue but things had been getting better until…I was assimilated by the Borg it was only for about an hour or so but…” she raised her left hand there were the signs of an Assimilation Tubeual implant remained she pointed to her eyes as well showing the scars of her brush with the collective “The Damage was done…Im afraid that she might be picking up that im in constant pain from headaches due to these ocular implants not to mention I still have Nightmares about being a drone…It was one of the worst times of my life” she said

If Lissan had looked into the Captains file she might have learned that the Captian had also been at one time diagnosed with a light case of PTSD which was found to be manageable however it had been one of the factors in an event that gave her a temporary demotion to that of Ensign

Tralla

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Lissan looked upon the Captain with great sympathy. She had read into her file, and knew she suffered from PTSD, a disorder that had no face. It was an obstacle the victim had to deal with in a way that they saw fit, but she would offer her services should Tralla ever need them.

There are moments in our past which define us; times that we cannot change no matter how much they pain us. It is not your fault you were assimilated, I hope you know that.” She contemplated Tralla a moment, shifting her attention between her and the man sitting beside her. “How you deal with your pain is by your own jurisdiction, Captain. But you’re absolutely right, children are perhaps some of the most observant people in the universe–when they want to be. I’ve little doubt she doesn’t see the pain you suffer. I cannot tell you how to fix it, but I can say that dealing with your trauma may be the first step to mending the strain between you. I am not saying therapy of any sort, but finding a way to work through the pain–whether it’s in exercise, arts, baking, dance–whatever you can think of, you just need to find something to help you cope. As your stress levels fall, your nights growing calmer as those nightmares hopefully fade, I think you’ll notice a difference in your daughter.” She smiled. “Have you spoken with Doctor Grey about alternatives for your implants? Other methods which could decrease the pain?

Dr. Lissan
CNS

she nodded “Though I am afraid there is no way to get rid of the rest of these implants They could regenerate my natural eyes but there is a 50-50 chance I would be blind and would need these anyway so…yeah” she explained “I will, of course, take any suggestion and will talk to Lilith about coming to see you” she said with a sigh

Tralla

I’m sorry to hear that, Captain.” Lissan was in the firm belief that nobody should have to live in pain, regardless of who they were. She had joined this profession in search of finding ways to make it easier to deal with that pain. Unfortunately, this was not a kind she could help with. “All right. If you need anything from me until then, if even a listening ear, I’m here.

Dr. Lissan, CNS

“Its alright I have been learning to live with it…and thank you I will keep that in mind…Honey do you have anything else you want to talk to the counselor about?” she asked sweetly

Tralla

He was hurt that she wouldn’t tell him these things He didn’t like that she was hurting. “Why didn’t you tell me that? I could see it; but I didn’t know. Maybe Lilith sees it in both of us.” He didn’t like that she kept it from. But, he also understood. “It’s been hard to communicate since she and I have moved. We seem to have no time for each other.”

Janzen

“Honey you know I have been fighting this You were in the doctor’s appointments with me and heard them say that I was probably going to be in permanent pain,” she said a little annoyed that he was acting this way

Tralla

“I was there.”he responded. “But, you could talk to me about the nightmares. I feel distant cause I can’t get help you.”

Janzen

“I’m sorry darling but I felt its just something that I did not want to bother you with” she said with a sigh

Tralla

Lissan chose to maintain her silence, listening as the couple discussed the matter. Her gentle expression spoke greater volumes. She would act as support, but she would not intervene with any opinion of her own.

Dr. Lissan, CNS

she simply gave Lissan a look almost as if asking ‘Am I in the wrong here?’ she seemed to be very concenered that she had infact damaged her second marrage “Listen I am not…very good at this Being married thing I mean my last one was to satisfy tradition and then we split up I know I have a lot to learn but even still…” she said not quite sure what else to say

Tralla

Lissan returned her expression with a subtle, albeit gentle shake of her head. Neither of them were wrong, she knew that although she questioned if they did. And if so..were they willing to accept they were both right? She wanted to speak, to say something, but it wasn’t her place to upset their progress..even if it seemed less than such.

Dr. Lissan, CNS

BJ listened. He was hurt that she thought that what she was dealing would be a bother. “You’ll never bother me.” He was trying to find what to say. This was always hard for him. “It hurt you think that. I see you struggle and it hurts.”

Janzen

“I know love but as I said Its just something I thought I should deal with on my own!” she said simply

Tralla

“But you’re not on your own. That’s what you haven’t got yet. I’m here.”

Janzen

She was starting to get a little annoyed at this point “Sweetie…you cant understand this…I was assimilated By the borg unless you have to its something you can’t help with because you can’t know the pain and fear hear all those many voices in your head darling my nightmares are of me being assimilated again then made to assimilate you and Lilith!” she said putting her foot down now she was mad that was for sure “I fear they will come back and make me hurt the ones I love the most!” she said tears forming around her implants because for some reason those had naturally came back after her ordeal

Tralla

She was right. He couldn’t understand that. But, he couldn’t understand if she wouldn’t let him either. “I can’t understand if you don’t talk to me. I’m not sure how I can help you. But, I want to.”

Janzen

“Honey please…” she said clearly tired of arguing about it “You can never understand it even if I was to tell you You can’t understand! You cant help This is something I have to deal with!” she sighed starting to get pretty tired of explaining it over and over

Tralla

BJ was kinda getting tired of this. “Fine. I’m just tired of being pushed away. It seems that I can never truly get close to you. All I want is a chance to get as close as I used to get with you.”

Janzen

If I may,” Lissan interjected as softly as her voicebox would allow, “I believe you are having a misunderstanding.” She glanced between the Captain and her husband. “Is it possible to come to a compromise?

Janzen, you want to feel close to your wife as any husband would, but you feel there is a great distance–a wall, if you would, between you.” She turned to Zoarhi, “Tralla, you harbour fear from your past, fear that the demons behind you might creep up and destroy all that you love. For this reason, you seem to hold back to protect what you hold dearest. Despite what it appears, you care deeply for your family, yes?

How can we compromise so both of you feel happy and safe?” She posed the question, curious of their answers.

Dr. Lissan, CNS

“It would nice if you wouldn’t be as afraid to be close. You won’t hurt me. Cause, that wasn’t you. It was a program.”

Janzen

“I’m not trying to be distant I’m Not trying to push you away” she said frustrated “But you cant understand the trauma i have gone through and thus you cant help me with this but yes I want to be close to my family and I want to do everything to keep them safe and happy but what I went through with the Borg just can not be understood by anyone who has not themselves been basically mentally assaulted by them” she said clearly very tired of arguing with BJ and the CNS

Tralla

“I know you’re not. It’s just how I feel sometimes. It’s like you’re scared. It’s feels as if you hold back so you don’t get too close. It’s like you’re afraid the Borg programming will take over and hurt me. But, that’s not you. You don’t have to be afraid.”

Janzen

But thats not it at all I trust the crew to end me before that can happen My fear is that I would hurt my daughter and you before they can stop me…I will try to be more open but this is one subject I just can not discuss with you honey and i hope you understand why that is” she said taking his hand and holding it tightly

Tralla

That was all he wanted. He wanted his love to be more in his life. “That’s is all I can ask. All I wanted is to not feel like I’m on the outside trying to get inside to be beside you. I want to simply be beside you. I don’t need to know it all. All I need to know is that I’m not completely cut off. I felt that way a fair bit since that day. And I want to improve that in some way.”

Janzen


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