Posted by Ensign Luna (Security Officer /RTF) in Lounge Cas and Luna talk (alt timeline) tag medical

Posted by Lieutenant Casela Synthi-er (Counsellor / RTF) in Lounge Cas and Luna talk (alt timeline) tag medical

Posted by Ensign Luna (Security Officer /RTF) in Lounge Cas and Luna talk (alt timeline) tag medical
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Luna blinked that was an interesting reaction. She had had people scrable backwards to get away from her or even back pedal. Luna settled for now. And there was only once she had some one call her on her paranoia. Many it was time to talk this out. Time to learn to trust” section 31 managed to take me off the brige of the viking. I have been told a few time that I’m paranoid. I don’t like living and always looking over my shoulder afraid to trust anyone.” She looked at Cas befor taking a sip of her drink. ” I want to trust people but I don’t know how anymore, the things they did to me. Then to find out that star fleet was responsible. What made you change your mind all section 31 members I have meet love that evil cult.” Luna said. She took another drink trying to relax.
Ensign Luna

Casela nodded. She’d heard from Kara and John that they thought Section was using Viking as a psychological experiment, and she wouldn’t doubt it. It made the counselor in her cringe. And she had no doubt that Section, if not involved, was able to get on board. Leviathan was a bit different. But if the Brass in Section really wanted on Leviathan they would. That’s how she ended up here. They wanted a spy in the ranks. She wouldn’t do it of course, but it’s what they were hoping for. And then there was McHarrie and now Akirel (who apprently wasn’t Section anymore, but she didn’t buy that) and then Juliet from spec ops, and Remington, and Surda, and the list went on and on. Too many....Casela knew something was going on, but it was yet to be revealed what.

She pulled her thoughts back to the present and she nodded. “It’s hard to trust those you don’t know. It’s even harder to trust those you know when so many before have broken and decimated that trust. As for how to find that trust,” she shrugs, “I’m not the best to ask that question, Ensign.” Casela looked over at Luna at her last statement. Her face passive, but her mind racing. Perhaps Luna wasn’t as injured as she claimed. A child growing up in the Section, she probably loved that Evil cult more than most. Children at that young age are strongly influenced by what they are exposed to. It was quite possible Luna was one of the best agents she’d encountered. Her first instinct was to leave, walk away, but she was on Leviathan, in the lounge surrounded by her Black Devils. And a comm away was any number of people she could trust. So instead she relaxed in her seat. She wouldn’t answer that particular question. If the Section wanted to know if she was in or out they were going to have to try a whole lot harder.
Lt Synthi-er, CNS

Luna wrapped her arms around herself. She stared down at the table.” Celeste you were like me wornt you? Locked in a cage and when they did let you it was only to pins to a table and poked and proved for hours on end.” She said her voice squicked. She dug her nails into her arms and her own torched memories danced infront of her eyes. Tears thretond to fall as she closed her eyes. ” I can’t stand to be alone anymore. I was not actually born with wings you know these cursed things were forced on me. They tried this test on several other humans all of witch died. I was the only one to service this experiment. ” she said. She Felt something worm on her hands. She had cut herself with her own nails. She didn’t really care it didn’t really hurt.

” I spent years so sick I was unable to move. They for the those first few years had simply left me alone. They took scans and what not daly but I heard them placing bets with exciter on when I would die.” She said a sob nearly shaking her. She took a deep breath realizing that talk had helped some. ” I got better as you can see. I had grown wings my bones had become hollow they were shocked. Nationally there tests and experiments started again.” Shd said then fell silent. She was ether unwilling or unable to continue to talk.
Ensign Luna

“I’m sorry that happened to you, En. No one deserves that. As for your wings,” Casela sighed, “I don’t know what to tell you. If it’s something you want reversed you could talk to someone about it, or you can choose to embrace it and use it to make you better, stronger, and more unique. Use it against those that hurt you.” She looked at her arms, “But right now we’re going to sickbay. I don’t want to order you, but I will. You’ve cut yourself and need to have it taken care of.” There was compassion there, but also no nonsense. Luna was bleeding and Casela, as a medical professional and as a decent person, could not in good conscious not have Luna report to sickbay. She led the way out of the lounge and down to the turbolift.
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

” remove my wings no way” Luna said. That was not why she was telling this story. She looked as if she might cry. ” they may be cursed but I could never do that. What would cerenity think besides I need them. I just i need to talk about it. I’m tired of hiding and running. You went through something similar i know you did where else would you have gotten those marks from? Aren’t you tired of hiding and running from it too?” She said.

“I didn’t say that was why you were telling the story, En. But you call them a curse. You want to get past this, stop looking at yourself that way. Cerenity can’t do it, the crew can’t do it, I can’t do it for you. You have to change how you think about it. How you got them might be horrific but you have to see them as something other than a curse. We can talk all you want, but you have to change the language you use.” Her voice wasn’t angry or cruel, simply stating a fact. “Exactly, what would Cerenity think? What does she think. She’s one smart cookie. She may never tell you, but she knows you see it as a curse, she’s good at reading people. And if her mother sees it as curse how do you think she sees herself?” Luna loved her daughter, of that Casela had no doubt. And if she wouldn’t change her mind set for herself maybe she would do it for her daughter. Casela didn’t answer the other part. She wasn’t running from it. She hid her scars for one reason only, they made her easy to identify, and in her work, you had to be able to blend in. A body covered in a patchwork of scars was too easy to remember.

” she loves to fly and her wings, she dose not understand why I have issues because I want answer her questions. On this im thankfully she is independent and has made up her own mind. But your right I need to set a better example for cerenity.” Luna said.

Luna scrambled back at the mention of sickbay. She looked at her hands. She had don it again cut herself. ” Casela im fine realy its not that bad i can take care of this myself really” she still followed knowing Casela could order her to sickbay. ” Casela my name is Luna, you know you can use it right?” She said as they stepped into the turbolift. ” Casela I really don’t like sickbay can’t I just treat it myself.” There was slight panic and squeak to her voice. ” iv cut my self like this a few times i usually just wash the wounds and let it heal on its on” Luna said. It was a defense mechanism an un healthy one but a defense mechanism all the same.

Luna sounded more and more like an agent. “I’m sure you could, I could do it for you. I have don’t it for myself. We have an understanding on Leviathan. We all understand we have a past, and at times, when coping with those things, injuries happen. On the other side, we as individuals understand we will report to sickbay to ensure we heal properly. It was a hard lesson for me, too, Luna. You will manage.” It was stated so matter of factly Luna would have no doubt that Casela believed she would. “It’s hard to trust, and you said you wanted to learn how. Then you can start with Dr. Knox and his staff. You can learn to trust that they can take care of your medical needs. If you are skilled enough to heal your own injuries then you will know if they are messing up or not.” It was all so logical, in fact Casela sounded much like a Vulcan.

” Casela where did those scars come from” Luna said quietly. As the left the lift . She hesitated this was an emotional nightmare. She froze for a moment she could feel her hart race but it was not unusual her hart could and had gone faster when she was in the middle of combat or flying. ” Casela I need a moment please” she said if she was to upset when she walked in there there was no telling what would happen. Witch only filed her panic more. Casela would feel it Luna had not been lying to her or playing some kind of silly game. ” I hate section 31 i can’t stand doctors or scientists. I need to calm down before walking in there” Luna said. She know there was noy getting out of going but she needed to get control of her emotions first.
Ensign Luna

Casela led her several feet down the corridor between the main door and a side door. “Would you prefer me to have Dr. Knox come out here? or to go to his office rather than the main area? He’s very good and a very nice man. He reminds me of a very wise grandfather.” She also hoped he had one of those plants in his office like he gave her. That released a soothing scent to whomever was near it. It certainly couldn’t hurt to calm the ensign down. Casela appraised her. “Take a deep breath in and as you do stretch, every part of your body. Arms and fingers over your head and up on your toes to stretch your legs and bend your back to stretch those muscles and your core, stretch your wings out too. Then relax on the exhale and then do it again. Ground yourself in the feel of your body working.” Once she had done that she picked the conversation back up. “I understand your trepidation. But not all doctors or scientists are evil. There are those that would see you in your security uniform and judge you just as harshly because someone in that same uniform did something horrible once. You don’t have to trust, but you do have to give others the benefit of the doubt before you judge them. You can’t learn to trust other wise.”
Lt Synthi-er, CNS

Luna did as she was told. When she opend her wings to the impressive 10 foot wingspan they were indeed breath taken. How she could see them as a curse was behind most people. She setled forcing herself to relax. ” I Sorry iv caused you so much trouble tonight consuler ill be ok really. Though I know they hurt you to how did you get past it?” Luna said she forced herself to smile. She stepped into sickbah half wondering if Casela would follow her or go back to the lounge. She also hoped this would not end up on her record.
Ensign Luna
OOC: Pasting myself back in
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Casela followed her in. She was Dr Knox would need a report from her and it would be incredibly irresponsible of Casela to leave Luna alone, one until the doctor arrived to treat her injuries, and two when Luna was so incredibly nervous. She would see her settled and then she would finish her duties for the night before going to see Ryder.

She smiled at the NE nurse, “Hello Savine. Is Dr. Knox available?”
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

The ensign seeing as there really was not a doctor in sight turned to leave. Posing only when she was the consuler weighting for her. ” they are busy at the moment. And this is miner after all” she said with a time that sigeested she wanted to leVe sickbay after all the scratches on her arms were one self influenced Nd two not really that deep. Her hart started racing at the thought of what the CMO might do if he released she hurt herself. True she was trying to keep herself caught up in the memories as she spoke about them but now she was on the burger of getting caught in them again. There was a slight tremble to the ensign. ” really consuler im fine” she said
Ensign Luna

Nurse Savine smiled gently. “We aren’t busy at all Ensign. Come on over here to this biobed and I’ll get Dr. Knox.”

Casela followed as well and once NE Savine walked away Casela shook her head. “Injuries like these are normal when dealing with Trauma. But you and I would be very remise in allowing it to be ignored and not seeing the doctor. Take a deep breath ensign. Dr. Knox is very good at what he does and he won’t hurt you. We’ll be staying.” And then Casela got very serious, “We deal with these injuries appropriately or I’ll have to remove you from duty until this is all worked out and you have established better coping skills. I don’t mean to be harsh Ensign, but that’s the reality. I would think you would prefer to just have them cared for and be able to go back to work. If you don’t want these self-inflicted injuries to become a flag in your file then they need to be cared for properly.” Casela shrugged slightly, “Your choice.”
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

Luna followed quietly. The thought if being taken off duty nearly brought Luna to tears. ” no don’t take me off duty.” She dropped her head and looked at her feet. She did not really want anyone to know what she was feeling at the moment. “what about this situation was normal .” She wondered to herself. Normal people did not hurt themselves. Normal people were not afraid of doctors nore did they almost get pulled from active duty in the first month or so of being on a new ship. ” I… he’s not going to take me off active duty for this is he” she asked quietly.
Ensign Luna

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