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Counsellor's Office - Naim's psychological evaluation

Posted April 7, 2020, 9:17 a.m. by Lieutenant Commander Zef Rollo (Counselor) (D Grisham)

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Kiama Naim ((A) Chief Science Officer) in Counsellor’s Office - Naim’s psychological evaluation

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Zef Rollo (Counselor) in Counsellor’s Office - Naim’s psychological evaluation

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Kiama Naim ((A) Chief Science Officer) in Counsellor’s Office - Naim’s psychological evaluation
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To meet someone who had no regrets…well, Zef didn’t think that had ever happened before. Her brows raised with her internal dialog. She didn’t think the Lt was being totally honest with herself, but that could wait. “I can tell you’ve spent quite a bit of time thinking about your decisions and the fact that if you had to make them again you’d choose the same road is good. It’s unfortunate that we don’t usually have the luxury of making everyone happy when we have to make a choice, but the universe would be a boring place if we all wanted the same thing, wouldn’t it?”

“Absolutely,” replied Naim with a soft chuckle. “And I’m not sure how well we’d get along if we all wanted the same thing.”

“You do understand that believing we’re right in our decisions doesn’t mean we don’t question ourselves about them at some point in the future?” Perhaps the Lt was having a moment of difficulty admitting her choice to someone else?

—Rollo, CNS

Naim’s first reaction to that question was to look at the Counsellor in disbelief, one eyebrow raised. Once she was sure that she wouldn’t say anything inappropriate, she replied, “Yes, I’m very well aware of that.” In her mind, she added, Where there actually people who didn’t? How would that even be possible? Aloud she continued, “As you said yourself, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about my decisions. I’m impulsive at times, no doubt about that. But when it comes to important decisions I do think them through thoroughly. Yet, that doesn’t mean that I never second-guessed myself, nor do I belief that I will never second-guess myself again in the future. That would be foolish and naive. And in my line of work possibly dangerous.”

~Lt.jg. Naim, aCSO

Zef nodded. That was a much more satisfactory answer for the situation they were discussing. “I hope you understand I didn’t mean any offense by asking that question.” She’d seen the look on Naim’s face and noted it. “I see all kinds of beings and people in my line of work, and what you and I might think is obvious, might not even occur to someone else. So, I ask questions.”

“I do. No offense taken,” replied Naim with a small, apologetic smile.

The counselor rubbed her pale hands together as if they were chilled, before once again resting them on the arms of the chair. “My personal take on you is that you are very grounded in your belief system even though it differs from what others might choose for you, and that you are well educated and thoughtful in your every day approach to life. Granted, we’ve had very little time together, but I’ve studied people for many years and usually trust my ‘gut’. I believe you know exactly what you want out of life, Lt, and I wouldn’t be surprised in the least if you managed it.”

—Rollo, CNS

Naim was taken a little bit by surprise; though not so much by what she had said, but rather that her assessment of her came this early in their conversation. For a moment she wasn’t quite sure how to reply as she neither wanted to seem arrogant nor as if she didn’t belief in herself. Eventually she said, “I think I’ve know what I want out of life for a long time, but it took a while till I was … brave enough to stand up for myself and fully go my own way.” Tilting her head to the side she continued softly, “The difficult decision between doing what is right and what seems to be the easy way forward.”

~Lt.jg. Naim, aCSO

“Most of us struggle with important decisions like that throughout our lives. I would like to tell you that choices become easier as we age, but they don’t. However, we gain the advantage of knowing ourselves better the older we get, and that can help in our decision making.. For instance, I doubt I’d ever be happy living on a planet for the rest of my life. Of course, I didn’t know that until I was given access to the universe by Star Fleet. That knowledge will make some decisions in the future easier to arrive at, but won’t influence others. You see what I mean?”

—Rollo, CNS

Naim nodded, but remained silent. She wasn’t sure what else to say, but ‘yes’. And that she had already conveyed through nodding. There were some things going through her head, but none of which she wanted to talk about. Not because she was afraid of voicing those thoughts, but because she felt they had little to nothing to do with whether o not she was fit for duty. And that, after all, was the reason she was here.

~Lt.jg. Naim, aCSO

“So, one last thing—are you content with your role on the Manhattan? Do you feel there is anything or anyone standing in the way of your future?”

—Rollo, CNS

“Yes, I am,” replied Naim with a nod. “As I mentioned at that beginning, I never expected to be promoted to Lieutenant junior grade and acting Chief Science Officer this soon. But I’d be lying if I’d say I hadn’t hoped to be a department head one day. As for feeling like anyone or anything standing in my way … I don’t think so. I feel like I have a good working relationship with everyone I’ve met so far and I already made a few friends on the Manhattan.” At the mention of friends a tender smile crept on to her face, but was quickly replaced by a more passionate expression. “And anyways, while I never fancied being an Ensign till the end of time, my main ambition is to be a scientist; to explore things; go to new places; meet new people; and to constantly learn and expand my horizon. And that’s why we are out here. So unless I die or something, I don’t see that anything or anyone will stand in the way of me doing what I love and what I came here for. I mean, we are all here for similar reasons, are we not?” Her black eyes were sparkling as she talked. And to say that she was enthusiastic about her work would have been a bit of an understatement.

~Lt.jg. Naim, aCSO

Zef was smiling as the Lt spoke. It was good to see so much passion in the science officer who had been given her first chance to have some control in shaping her career. “I’m glad you were promoted. I believe the science department is in good hands with you in charge. I’ll make the necessary updates to your records about this meeting and clear you for duty. I don’t believe I have any other questions for you, Lt. Was there anything else you wanted to discuss?”

—Rollo, CNS


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