Holodeck 3- A Long Way Down (and Up)

Posted May 3, 2021, 8:37 a.m. by Lieutenant Commander Zef Rollo (Counselor) (D Grisham)

Posted by Lieutenant Faye Calloway (Mission Specialist) in Holodeck 3- A Long Way Down (and Up)

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Zef Rollo (Counselor) in Holodeck 3- A Long Way Down (and Up)

Posted by Lieutenant Faye Calloway (Mission Specialist) in Holodeck 3- A Long Way Down (and Up)


Faye watched her mother approach and when Shara gestured with her fingers for Faye to get up, she didn’t hesitate, though her movements were slow. Tired.

Shara wrapped her arms around her daughter tightly, squeezing her eyes shut. “I can’t make it better. I can’t do a damn thing about what all went down but I promise you this, my girl. I am here now and I will be here the best that I can, even if I am physically elsewhere.” She felt Faye almost sag against her and she held her daughter more securely for a moment before she pulled back enough to look into Faye’s eyes. “But…”

There was always a but, this Faye knew, but she somehow didn’t fear whatever condition her mother had.

Shara continued. “I’m wading through my own murky waters and it means that there are times when I have to step back. I can’t hear all the details. I… I don’t think…” Momentarily frustrated by her lack of words, Shara closed her eyes ever so briefly and took a deep breath. “If I get into it too deeply with you, I’m not sure I can surface and support you the way you need. And that’s why I’m glad you have people like Zef, and friends like Captain Cochrane as well. But the rest? Oh Baby Girl, I am all in, in every way. And we’ll figure this out together, okay?”

Tears in her eyes, Faye nodded. “Okay.”

Shara cupped her daughter’s face for a moment and leaned in to place a tender kiss on her forehead. As strong and resilient as Faye truly was, there was a part of her that Shara recognized as being a little girl who needed some parenting. She might have been ripped apart from her family at the worst possible time in Faye’s life, but they could perhaps heal some of that pain together.

Sitting and gesturing for Faye to join her, she took in Zef with a grateful smile. “I’m so glad she has you,” she said sincerely. “And I’m going to let you continue here as you two need to but there was something I wanted to bring up.”

Zef’s smile encompassed the two women. They were making wonderful progress and doing it together.

“What’s that?” Faye asked, her head tilted in curiosity.

“I have a friend who breeds animals for therapy work. I reached out to pick her brain on your situation and she said that you might benefit greatly from having a cat or a dog as an emotional support animal. There are numerous studies that show the mental health benefits of having a pet, and since your position on the ship is seemingly stable, I thought it was an idea worth exploring. I did bring it up with the captain, since he’d have to sign off on it and I didn’t want to get your hopes up if he rejected the idea. But he’s on board with a cat. I think you’d have to convince him more if it were a dog, but knowing you a cat would make sense.” Shara focused on Zef. “If Faye liked the idea, Cochrane wants you to sign off on the idea so that the animal could be given official therapy status and then he doesn’t have to worry about the optics. I’ve done a fair bit of research so I can walk you two through the pros and cons.”

~Faye & Shara Calloway

She took a moment to think about it, but research had shown time and time again how much animals helped humanoids with everything from physical ailments to dispelling loneliness. Since Faye was already working with BPD, Zef saw no reason to deny her the companionship of an animal. “Actually, I’m fine with it if its what Faye wants.”

—Rollo, CNS

Faye chewed on the inside of her cheek while she pondered the idea. While she hadn’t grown up with pets (not quite practical on their particular colony) she had no issue with them at all. She certain wasn’t afraid of them. And it might be nice to have a responsive creature around. “The dissociation lately has been really disorientating. Especially tonight. I think it’s the first time in a long time where i’ve sort of come to in a different place than I can last remember. If having a pet could help with that, or help me in some way when it happens, I think it could be a good thing. But I think I like the idea of a cat more. Not sure if they are mutually exclusive.”

Shara nodded. “Let me talk with my friend and see what she suggests. She’s got a lot of experience.” She rested a hand on Faye’s knee. “I’m going to head off, but I’ll come see you later?”

“Okay, Faye said with a nod.

For a moment Shara just gazed deeply at her daughter. “I thought the award ceremony was the proudest I could be, but I was wrong.”

Despite how utterly exhausted she was, Faye smiled.

Shara patted her knee and got up. “You both know where to find me if you need me.” She gave a grateful nod to Rollo.

“Thanks,” Faye said quietly and Shara just winked at her before heading out.

Sitting there on the blanket, Faye blew out a breath. There were just so many emotions and so many of them sat under the surface. But just getting that story out had taken all of her willpower, and despite her detachment she knew she wasn’t ready to process it all right now. If she had learned anything from her years of therapy it was that there was often a limit to how much you could do at any point. Rolling her shoulder back she could say that she felt just ever so slightly lighter than when she had surfaced and found herself in the holodeck with her mom and Alex. “What now?” she asked Zef softly.

~Faye & Shara Calloway

“Sleep would be a good idea. You’ve accomplished a lot today and although its only from talking, the roller coaster of emotions and physical changes in hormones and chemicals in your body as you did it, wears a person out.” Even she was tired and looked forward to crawling into bed with Alex even if they just slept.

“Maybe a hot shower? A cup of tea? I can see you’re weary right now, but I don’t know how being this drained affects your ability to sleep. Do you think you need me to prescribe something?”

—Rollo, CNS

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