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Calloway's Quarters- Mentoring in All Forms

Posted July 21, 2021, 1:32 p.m. by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) (Lindsay Bayes)

Posted by Captain Alexander Cochrane (Commanding Officer) in Calloway’s Quarters- Mentoring in All Forms

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) in Calloway’s Quarters- Mentoring in All Forms

Posted by Captain Alexander Cochrane (Commanding Officer) in Calloway’s Quarters- Mentoring in All Forms
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“Yeah… but I couldn’t take Daggum. Pikelsimer could make this whole damn ship disappear if he set his mind to it. But if anyone could take him… it’d be you, Faye. Or should I call you Little Pikelsimer now?” and he chuckled.

Alex

“No,” Faye said flatly. “How about we never say that again. Nothing against the guy, but man is that name a mouthful. Captain Calloway has such nice alliteration and suits me much better don’t you think?”

“The very thought fears me with dual excitement and fear.” and he laughed.

“As it should be,” she said, her eyes glimmering with amusement.

Settling back into her spot, Faye regarded Alex for a moment and then shook her head. “You know, it’s remarkable. Think about it, Alex. Pikelsimer is, like you say, wholly independent, and so is my mom. I’d go so far as to say they thrive being on their own. It’s not that they don’t answer to anyone, but it weighs less on their every decision. But something is different when they are together. Something so strong and unexpected they got married after knowing each other, what, two months?!” Her stormy eyes gazed deeply as she smiled. “Here you and I are, me engaged and yes a bit mystified at how fast the whole thing went and you learning how to rebuild a relationship, and we’re looking at them like something crazy happened. But imagine being at that part of your life where you can make such a massive decision and, not brush it iff, but just go with it. Be spontaneous. Right to the point of telling your daughter without apology or shame: look what I did. Yep, that was me. I want that, Alex. That surety even if was a spur of the moment thing. Possibly drunken too. But she didn’t say, Hey Faye, ‘don’t worry, we’ll fix this’. Or ‘look what we did that we shouldn’t have and now have to annul’. Nope, she’s going through with it. Some part of her loves that man that much that she’s willing to connect herself to him forever on w whim. That’s commitment!” she said with a grin.

~Faye

Alex pondered the statement and reflected a bit before saying “Well… I think you are at that point, Faye. At least for now. The spontaneous points in our lives aren’t singular… they come when things are aligned and the circumstances set to allow us to take a much bigger step forward in our own development than we normally do. It’s like a child growing up. They are always growing, but they hit those growth spurts and suddenly they are changed overnight. Thats what is happening with you and Daggum… you are meant to be, so the universe made it so you and he could have that growth at the same time; and be there to help each other integrate it into your lives. Same with your mom and Pikelsimer. And I, for one, think its wholly and completely beautiful and absolutely fitting that it happened for them in that way. Tiny cowboys and all.” and he laughed.

Alex

Faye laughed. “They’re never going to live that down, that’s for sure!”

Sipping her cooling coffee, she was contemplative again. “What about you Alex. Clearly you’re not experiencing that same simultaneous growth. But what do you want for yourself, for your life? What does the next five or ten years look like, if you had your way?”

~Faye

Alex smiled a smile that held both regret and self-deprecation. “I honestly do not know…” he said and his voice trailed off. “I spent almost my entire life wanting to be a starship Captain. Now, I am. And honestly… it scares me to say but if I died right now; I’d die happy knowing that is what I am. But part of me also thinks ‘Really? That’s it?’ So I don’t know what the next five or ten years look like. For now, I’m just going to enjoy being here.”

Alex

Tess jumped back up on sofa and pushed her way into Faye’s lap. Faye smirked and began to pet the young cat. “You’re allowed to have new dreams too, you know.” Chewing on her lower lip she debated whether to say anything but decided they were too good of friends for anything less than full honesty. “I don’t know what it was like to have a parent who pushed me down paths of their own choosing and accepted nothing less than perfection to satisfy their own needs, but you don’t have to do anything anymore. I know she’s not bene in your life for a long time now, but that stuff doesn’t go away. I know that all too well. But that single-minded pursuit mentality. How much of that is you and how much is the remnants of your mom’s way?” she asked quietly, a gentle frown etched on her face. She could be completely off base here and he’d tell her if she was, but a part of her really didn’t think she was.

~Faye

Alex smiled at her and said “I appreciate the concern Faye.” and he winked. “This dream was all mine. It really was. She kept pushing us to become athletes or artists… something she could brag about. But after her absolutely epic fall from grace? Rache and I both decided what we wanted to do was make sure the whole Fleet knew that we are definitively not her children. That she did not define us. I mean… you said you knew what happened when we got to the Academy, right? That was her final way of trying to decide what we did… to take credit for us pursuing our dreams. And she failed. And that makes me more happy than you can possibly know.” and he chuckled.

Alex

She gave him a lopsided smirk. Faye still thought even his joy in his trumping his mother was still about her more than he wanted to admit, but it was okay. Everyone had their places they couldn’t entirely let go. Goodness knew she did! She might be coming out the other side of seriously damaging trauma, but it was never going to leave entirely. It just didn’t get to decide her happiness. “Well, this shipping company of Dag’s and mine might just be horticultural if I get my way. He said you can have a discount” she said with a grin. “You know, when I’m doing your landscape design and all.”

~Faye


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