Posted July 23, 2021, 3:31 p.m. by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) (Lindsay Bayes)
Posted by Civilian Revna Freya McKenzie (Diplomatic Attache) in Deck 4 Garden- It’s Who you Know
Posted by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) in Deck 4 Garden- It’s Who you Know
Faye nodded slowly. “Yeah, I get that. I’m going through a similar process. I had all this stuff in the past that I pushed away so it couldn’t hurt me, but they were integral pieces of who I am, of my story. And now that I’m letting them coexist with everything else, the real Faye gets to live this life that is far bigger and fuller than she could have ever imagined.” She blinked and shook her head. “Sorry, don’t know where that came from. Feeling reflective lately I guess.”
Revna smiled softly and genuinely. “It’s alright you had a need to speak it let it breath for a moment, the combined person you are becoming. Reflections on yourself.” Revna gently unwound part of the vine, there was the beginnings of a beautiful bloom on it and she didn’t want to have to snip it if she could help it and so she worked carefully to untangle it. “Many many years ago, before I entered the academy there was Shauwn. We grew up together, and I don’t just mean we knew each we were clan, there was never a time he wasn’t there. We were very much in love. It wasn’t like for others, when your a teenager and you discover boys or girls and it’s all intense and exciting. We just....fit.” She grew quiet a soft smile as she remembered. “He died in the Breen attack on Earth. I…lost myself to the grief to the darkness. We had our whole life planned out and I had no idea what to do with him gone. He joined Star Fleet because that was his dream, and so I joined Star Fleet when we lost him, but I never wanted to. I did it for him. By the time I realized I was living his life and not my own, I was several years into my career, and with no idea what I should do, I stayed.”
Taking some of the loosened vines they were keeping, Faye moved over to the black metal obelisk and began winding it through the beautiful metalwork. “I get that, though it’s opposite for me. Starfleet was something I chose for myself even though it felt like an impossible thing. I wasn’t anyone. I wasn’t even a Federation citizen. But I made it happen… with help of course. But after some really difficult things happened, I finally got into a place where I could be a good officer, less confrontational. And then this arrogant ass of an Intelligence officer shows up and insinuates that I settled. That it was all a facade. The obedient Lieutenant Calloway.” Faye looked over at Revna and smirked. “He was right. He saw right through me and my shoddy act. I am and always will be the rebel from Tracken Two, who picks her side and is fiercely loyal to it, and woe be to anyone who gets in the way. But I joined Starfleet in part because I wanted some semblance of discipline. I wanted to be accountable to someone other than myself. I wandered alone for so long that I got used to looking out for myself. And long after I had people to be there for me and help, I forgot to let them in a little. I made myself promise after I had a mission go very badly that I would let people in and try and actually live, not just survive.” She spread her hands out. “I think I’m doing a pretty fine job if I do say so myself, even if my life is about ten times more colourful at every turn than I’d prefer,” she said with a laugh.
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