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Deck 4 Garden- It's Who you Know

Posted July 23, 2021, 10:40 p.m. by Civilian Revna Freya McKenzie (Diplomatic Attache) (Jennifer Ward)

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) in Deck 4 Garden- It’s Who you Know

Posted by Civilian Revna Freya McKenzie (Diplomatic Attache) in Deck 4 Garden- It’s Who you Know

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Faye Calloway (Counter-Intelligence Officer) in Deck 4 Garden- It’s Who you Know

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Faye nodded slowly. “Yeah, I get that. I’m going through a similar process. I had all this stuff in the past that I pushed away so it couldn’t hurt me, but they were integral pieces of who I am, of my story. And now that I’m letting them coexist with everything else, the real Faye gets to live this life that is far bigger and fuller than she could have ever imagined.” She blinked and shook her head. “Sorry, don’t know where that came from. Feeling reflective lately I guess.”

~Faye Calloway

Revna smiled softly and genuinely. “It’s alright you had a need to speak it let it breath for a moment, the combined person you are becoming. Reflections on yourself.” Revna gently unwound part of the vine, there was the beginnings of a beautiful bloom on it and she didn’t want to have to snip it if she could help it and so she worked carefully to untangle it. “Many many years ago, before I entered the academy there was Shauwn. We grew up together, and I don’t just mean we knew each we were clan, there was never a time he wasn’t there. We were very much in love. It wasn’t like for others, when your a teenager and you discover boys or girls and it’s all intense and exciting. We just....fit.” She grew quiet a soft smile as she remembered. “He died in the Breen attack on Earth. I…lost myself to the grief to the darkness. We had our whole life planned out and I had no idea what to do with him gone. He joined Star Fleet because that was his dream, and so I joined Star Fleet when we lost him, but I never wanted to. I did it for him. By the time I realized I was living his life and not my own, I was several years into my career, and with no idea what I should do, I stayed.”

Revna

Taking some of the loosened vines they were keeping, Faye moved over to the black metal obelisk and began winding it through the beautiful metalwork. “I get that, though it’s opposite for me. Starfleet was something I chose for myself even though it felt like an impossible thing. I wasn’t anyone. I wasn’t even a Federation citizen. But I made it happen… with help of course. But after some really difficult things happened, I finally got into a place where I could be a good officer, less confrontational. And then this arrogant ass of an Intelligence officer shows up and insinuates that I settled. That it was all a facade. The obedient Lieutenant Calloway.” Faye looked over at Revna and smirked. “He was right. He saw right through me and my shoddy act. I am and always will be the rebel from Tracken Two, who picks her side and is fiercely loyal to it, and woe be to anyone who gets in the way. But I joined Starfleet in part because I wanted some semblance of discipline. I wanted to be accountable to someone other than myself. I wandered alone for so long that I got used to looking out for myself. And long after I had people to be there for me and help, I forgot to let them in a little. I made myself promise after I had a mission go very badly that I would let people in and try and actually live, not just survive.” She spread her hands out. “I think I’m doing a pretty fine job if I do say so myself, even if my life is about ten times more colourful at every turn than I’d prefer,” she said with a laugh.

~Faye Calloway

Revna’s baby sister, Ragna, was just like that. She never had the desire to leave Earth. She was a force of nature, a lightening storm wrapped in a hurricane hiding paradise in the eye of the storm. Revna smiled. “For me, I had all this crew and friends but I was still alone, lonely, for a long time. Then one day the grief just…went into perspective and I knew I was living Shauwn’s life but I had, at some point made a life, if not my own, in the fleet. Then I got injured ‘in the line of duty’,” so much frustration there, “and I felt cheated, it was supposed to be over, but I didn’t die. I simply survived in the shadows, in the darkness. And then my CO sent me to Atlantis and well things changed. My sister, my twin was sent there too, and my oath brother, and then I made really good friends. And well my health went south, and I’ll admit to a pity party. That’s when I met Mike.” Revna’s whole body language changed and she laughed, “He told me he was angry with me and I’d better not give up because I lost our bet and I had to pay up.” She laughed more. “I guess I’m finding myself again. I kind of lost track of it.” Revna walked over with more of the vines and began easing them onto the trellis. “I didn’t mean to ramble so much. You know I firmly believe that we can’t enjoy the good unless we know the bad. Sometimes that’s harder to accept. Are you happy even if it sometimes overwhelming? Because that’s all that matters Faye.”

McKenzie


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