Posted Sept. 23, 2021, 12:47 p.m. by Captain Alexander Cochrane (Commanding Officer) (James Sinclair)
Posted by Civilian Sair Songz (Counselor) in CNS Office - Checking Boxes
Posted by Captain Alexander Cochrane (Commanding Officer) in CNS Office - Checking Boxes
Posted by Civilian Sair Songz (Counselor) in CNS Office - Checking Boxes
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“I look forward to the opportunity,” Sair said. “Has the music been helping with recent events?” she asked. She was, of course, piecing together the things he had said and as they went along she was sure she’d have a more complete picture of where he was at.
~Sair Songz, CNS
Cochrane smiled slightly and said “Really? Now when does music not help, Counselor?” and he chuckled softly. “Yes, it does. And it helps to work as well. Not to ignore what happened, mind you… but to clarify why I made some choices the way I did. And why she chose as did , too.”
Cochrane, CO
“Did those choices bring about the end of the relationship?” Sair asked. While in their first meeting he had mentioned talking about it later, she was glad he had brought up this event himself. It meant he was open to working on the fallout of it and not avoid it.
~Sair Songz, CNS
Cochrane shook his head. “No… well… I don’t believe mine did. My reaction to a choice she made probably moved things in that direction, though…” and he took a breath and sighed. “So…” and he looked at her. “Zef was Bajeen. It is a race most of us had no experience with, but they are Federation members and thus her career in Star Fleet. Part of their culture and custom concerns pregnancy. In the Bajeen culture, if a female is unable to bear children, she and her spouse can hire and contract a surrogate. Nothing strange or odd in that… save the fact that the impregnation of the woman is done… well… ‘the old-fashioned way’, as it were. They view it as a business transaction. There is nothing odd about it. Zef contracted to be a surrogate for an old friend. So my struggle to accept that was not that she had necessarily agreed to carry another couple’s child. It was the fact that she didn’t tell me she had agreed to do so until the day before they arrived… and that she would be sleeping with another man until such a time as the deed was done.” and he sank back into the chair, his displeasure still apparent on his face.
“Looking back… I can honestly say that it wasn’t the pregnancy that upset me. It even wasn’t the fact that she was going to have sex with someone else even though we were together. What it was was… it was… it was the deceit. At least, from my perspective it was deceit. She agreed to do it over a a month before she told me. And it didn’t cross her mind to tell me until the day before… and that.... that hurt. It made me feel… like an afterthought. Which was compounded by the discussions we had had about the future. Where we were headed… what we wanted as a couple. None of that seemed to matter. So when were at dinner on the station and she told me like it was ‘Oh tomorrow I’m going shopping.’… I just got up and left. It was ugly, I know that. I was hurt and she either couldn’t… or wouldn’t… see why. And that made me angry and hurt. We never really recovered from that, although we tried. I understand that is how it was perceived by her people, and she was adamant that I just needed to see it form a ‘Bajeen’ perspective. But she never took the time to see it from a human perspective. Anyway… while we were trying to move on, she chose to leave. Again, didn’t tell me until it was decided. So… her I am talking to you.” and he shrugged.
Cochrane, CO
Cochrane, CO
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