Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Oshekye Aasu (Counselor) in Side Sim CNS office Tag CNS

Posted by Captain Tralla Sh’Zoarhi (Captain) in Side Sim CNS office Tag CNS

Posted by Captain Tralla Sh’Zoarhi (Captain) in Side Sim CNS office Tag CNS
Posted by… suppressed (4) by the Post Ghost! 👻
Tralla had been putting this off for a while, she knew she needed to, especially since as an Andorian her biological clock was always ticking loudly. Sure this would not be the first time, Her daughter Lilith was living on earth with Jade’s family but that was the problem, wasn’t it? She was a horrible mother, she had not been there for Lilith and she was not right now either. How could she be thinking about this when she had already proven that she was the worst mother ever, she took a deep breath and sighed in the corridor just outside the Counselors office. she raised a blue hand and rubbed her face, her antenna was showing a mix of emotions she was feeling displeasure and annoyance to name just a couple. yet she did promise BJ that she would do this, she reached up and rubbed the temples of her head another headache thanks to her ocular implants.

and there was the other thing that was holding her back, The dreams…One of three haunted her still seven years after having had her encounter with the borg. How could she be a proper mother, when she had been subject to the horrors of those Monsters! she was not worthy to be a mother, but again she promised she would talk to the counselor about this, so swallowing her pride and everything else that had been rampaging through her mind, she rang the chime on the counselor’s office door and waited to be invited in.

Tralla

The door swished open with a metallic shriek, revealing a lithe figure adorned in medical blues. Aasu knelt beside a wooden crate and extracted tiny, plexiglass-entrapped plants from its belly. Rising, they hooked the string around their thumb and climbed onto a two-step stool to hang it from adhesive hooks staggered across the ceiling. The terrariums accompanied a pair of standard-issue arms chairs and a drab coffee table. Though harmless and almost unnoticeable, they added warmth and vitality to an otherwise stale corner. Aasu hoped to extend that warmth across their office… but it was a process. One thing at a time, eh?

“Captain,” Aasu welcomed from their negligible perch, “it’s wonderful to see you again.”

Oshekye released the last terrarium to its hook and stepped from the ladder, nudging the crate aside. “Please,” they made an encompassing gesture to the room, “make yourself at home.” Their office existed in a state of influx. Crates lined the wall behind their PaDD-covered desk, while plants and loamy decor transformed the therapy area into a mini-arboretum. Well… almost. Many of the plants were synthetic to account for patient allergies and intolerances; but, it was the ambience that mattered. “Forgive the disarray,” they snagged their personal PaDD and cleared the others to a barren crate lid, “you caught me in the middle of unpacking.”

“But that’s not a problem,” Aasu assured, “what brings you by, Captain?”

— Oshekye Aasu

“Im sorry I should have called ahead…But knowing myself…I probably would have canceled or something....made some excuse not to confront this issue…” she sighed taking one of the two chairs making it clear this was a full-on Session her Antenna was twisting and showing that she was not feeling very comfortable at the moment something was clearly bothering her and she needed to talk about it

Tralla

Oshekye sensed the tension in Tralla’s writhing antennae and halted, averting their course from ‘complementary tea’ to the chair kitty corner from her. “I’m very happy you came to see me today,” they lowered themself to the cushion with a warm and patient smile, “and please know that you can stop me at any time if you’re uncomfortable.” Aasu wavered for a few heartbeats. “I noticed you used the word ‘issue’,” they observed, “do you mind telling me a bit more about it and how it makes you feel?”

— Oshekye Aasu, CNS

she nodded and took a deep breath

“My current husband is part of this ship’s crew BJ Janzen our Chief Science officer we were married back on the Ark Angel And the issue is that…BJ wants to have children now its not that I don’t want to far from it for Andorians its very much a cultural thing, you may not know this but My People have a very hard time when it comes to keeping our population numbers up as for a pure-blooded Andorian it takes four of us to conceive all four of our Genders now it is possible for us to have mixed species offspring, especially with humans however the problem for me is…I am already the worst mother in the whole Galaxy” she said getting up from the chair to pace she clearly was afraid of stopping and not being able to open up again because she continued

Aasu uncrossed their legs and leaned against the arm of their chair, slowly following Tralla as she paced the space between them.

“I already have a daughter from a different union however I was not part of her life being that I was serving here in Starfleet at the time Me and my bond mates agreed that we would have her then I would be allowed to attend the academy but eventually her other parents…all died in tragic accidents her fathers were lost at sea on a fishing boat while her Zhenmother was killed by an Orion pirate group that attacked the dig site she was working so Lilith came to live with me and BJ on the Ark Angel for a while she is currently living on earth with some friends but even still…I was never part of her life and she has resented me for it I did my best when she was living with us but I just feel....LIke its proof that I am a horrible mother who should never have any more children despite how very much I want too!” she said stopping now looking out a window at the black void they sailed through

Tralla

Oshekye tilted their head, an empathetic frown touching their lips.

Though Tralla framed her struggle in unmistakable clarity, they sensed a more profound internal conflict. Aasu considered the emotions underlying her words. She preceded her self-accusation with a comment on Andorian cultural values. Why did they concern her? Her experience in Starfleet posed questions of balance and health. And the loss of her bondmates. They wondered how Tralla navigated parenthood while grieving and without her support system. Did she seek help? Aasu recalled her mentioning her desire to have children with Jazen, inhibited only by trepidations arising from her perceived misgivings with Lilith. Every word she uttered was clinically significant, but Aasu trusted this was the best place to start.

“I hear you,” Aasu eased in after several heartbeats of silence, “and all the fear and hurt and everything you’re feeling is valid. I know this is a lot to process, and it can be tough, but I would like to start with your relationship with Lilith. You said that she ‘resents’ you. What has happened to make you feel she resents you?”

— Oshekye Aasu, CNS

Bump Reply coming soon

KG