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Transitions and Goals [Tag Counselor]

Posted Aug. 17, 2022, 8:26 p.m. by Lieutenant Junior Grade Jhalae Ynuchausti (Engineer(Soon To be Promoted)) (Mika Jackson)

Posted by Lieutenant Paige Rowan (Counselor) in Transitions and Goals [Tag Counselor]

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Jhalae Ynuchausti (Engineer(Soon To be Promoted)) in Transitions and Goals [Tag Counselor]

Posted by Lieutenant Paige Rowan (Counselor) in Transitions and Goals [Tag Counselor]
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Jhalae woke up early around 0515 hours, went to the holodeck, and completed a rock-climbing simulation before going to the lounge for a cup of Orion tea and Uttaberry crêpe.
Afterward, she went back to her quarters, showered, then had a silent debate in her mind on whether she should wear her pant or dress uniform. Since the imagined it was going to be a slow day, she settled on the dress uniform. After whipping her hair in a high neat bun, she hopped on the nearest turbo-lift. Initially, she headed for deck 14 to begin her engineering duties, however, she changed her mind and decided to stop by the Counselor’s office instead. When she reached her suite she, stood there, then turned to leave before she turned back ranged the chime.

Ynuchausti, Engineer

From inside the room the sound of a short half yip half bark could be heard followed by a shhhing. “Come in!” A voice called from inside.

Paige Rowan
CNS

As Jhalae walked in she searched for the dog a moment before saying, “Welcome to the memorial.” She rubbed her right hand up and down her left arm. “It’s good to have a counselor onboard, hopefully I haven’t caught you at a bad time. I was hoping to get a chance to speak with you. My transition on this ship hasn’t been ideal and I am struggling with being so far away from my mother. I didn’t think it would be an issue but it is.”

There was no dog, but a small black fox walked along the bookcase and dropped onto a cushion before the counsellors desk. He sat watching. Paige for her part raised her eyebrows. “Thank you, that’s very kind. Not a bad time no…” she listened.

She paused not sure if she was comfortable about sharing her next issue, the real reasonshe was there. “I have also been having reoccurring dreams about…um..I guess an alternate version of myself? I mean she looks like me but I know she is not me even though we share the same visions and thoughts in my dream. It’s like I am her or she is me, in a different time and universe. I think I am, maybe I am being affected by something on the ship. What do you think?”

Ynuchausti, Engineer

“Ok. Let’s…sit and we can talk about that.” She indicated the squashy chairs and sofa seating arrangement around the coffee table. “Im Paige. He’s Maddox. He won’t bother us if you’re concerned.” She said nodding her head at the fox.

Paige Rowan
CNS

“Oh a fox!” Said Jhalae surprised. “I have never seen a real one and I don’t much about them, however I will take your word that he is friendly.”
She didn’t ask to pet Maddox even though she wanted to, instead she sat on the sofa on looked at the woman. “I know all this must sound crazy. Just so you know I have no family history of delusions or anything of that sort. Also this other woman only appears in my dreams, I don’t see her in my waking hours so my situation is not interfering with my work.” She quickly shared this information because she was concerned about the possibility of the counselor thinking she may not be fit for duty.

Ynuchausti, Engineer

Paige smiled. “You can pay him if you’d like.” She said as if she had read the engineers mind. “I can call him over, and I don’t like to use the word crazy. How about we start with the transition things, tell me about your last post and your time here? Can I get you something to drink while we chat?”

Paige Rowan
CNS

Jhalae nodded and said, “I would like that. Where in the universe did you find a fox?.”

Paige smiled. “Maddox.” She said and nodded to the fox who jumped up from his cushion and made his way slowly over. He gave Paige a quick look to check it was still ok and then clambered up beside the engineer and waited for her to pat him.

She carefully placed her hand on Maddox’s head, and then gently rubbed it. “Oh, Maddox, you are adorable. I want one of you,” she said.

The fox butted his head into the pat and seemed to like it, his fur soft and silky. He swished his bushy tail a little happily.

“He was a gift from my mentor. He’s been my companion ever since my first posting. He’s trained as a therapet. I suffer a seizure disorder. “ she said as explanation.

“Wow. And Maddox helps ease your seizures? I am sorry if I sound ignorant I have not heard of anything like this and I think it’s remarkable.”

Paige smiled. “Not at all. He alerts me on the rare occasion I have a seizure before it happens. He will bark, whine or jump, giving me enough time to get to a safe place. He will then alert someone nearby and stay with me.” She gave the fox a fond look.

“Not only are you cute, but you are smart!” she said to Maddox in a silly baby voice. Jhalae could not help her curiosity. “So are there any specific triggers for your seizures? Have you always had them?”

She thought about the transition question and said, “Honestly I haven’t really found my place on the ship. Meaning I haven’t developed any meaningful friendships That bothers me because I am social and connections are important to me. It may be from a lack of trying on my part. I joined right in the middle of a mission and there was no time for formalities. Before I was stationed here I worked on Starbase 199, repairing and doing regular maintenance on starships that stopped through. I had a very solid social network there, so transitioning here where my social life is non-existent has been a challenge for me.”

Ynuchausti, Engineer

Paige smiled. “Well, social relationships are important. You said it’s maybe lack of trying on your part. Do you want to expand on that?”

Paige Rowan
CNS

Jhalae shrugged and shifted a bit, “Well I haven’t exactly made a real attempt to reach out. I don’t know. I am not the one who usually makes first contact. I am always approached by people and then everything just works out from there. I haven’t experienced that with this crew. I don’t know what to make of it. Does it mean that they do not want to be around me or are not interested in making friends with me? I know you are probably going to say I need to make the first move. Reach out. Start the conversation. It makes sense but I think maybe I am afraid of rejection.”

Ynuchausti, Engineer

“No.” Paige said, “I wouldn’t say that exactly.” She looked ponderous a moment. “I think on a ship of this size coming in with a crew that have served together for a while makes it very difficult to know how or when to make friends. Why would you say you were afraid of rejection?”

Paige Rowan
CNS

Jhalae agreed, “It is one of the things I know about myself for sure. Being Orion has not been easy for me. I grew up on a predominantly human starship. I was not always treated fairly and ignored like I wasn’t important. Other kids use to say I had pukey green skin. And no one was allowed to touch me or else they would throw up green puke.” She paused for a moment, then said, “It has left me with the need to be noticed and that is why making friends is so important to me.”
She looked at Maddox and smiled as she continued to pet him. “I have not experienced any of this while I have been in StarFleet but it’s how they say, The damage has been done. She gave Maddox a final pat before she put both her hands on her lap. “You know I used to pretend that I was brave and I stood up to all those kids who picked on me. Do you know I was supposed to be a twin? I imagined her being here with me and both of us fighting off these evil kids. Do you think this has something to do with the doppelganger in my dream?”

Ynuchausti, Engineer


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