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Daggum's Quarters- Star-Crossed Lovers

Posted April 30, 2021, 1:41 p.m. by Lindsay B

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Daggum Hammor (Chief Operations Officer) in Daggum’s Quarters- Star-Crossed Lovers

Posted by Lindsay Bayes in Daggum’s Quarters- Star-Crossed Lovers

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At this, tears slipped down her cheeks and she looked down for a moment. Taking a deep breath, she forced herself to lift her head and meet his gaze. =/\=Because I loved Kodell, Dag. For better or worst. He was my first love. And… earlier I told you about the guy I was sort of casual with. Well, it went badly, just as Alex predicted. He wanted more from me than I could give, more than I stated up front was there to have. I have never had a healthy relationship. It’s not an exaggeration. There was always some unhealthy component to each one. It’s my MO. I either find emotionally unavailable men or they take advantage of me in some way. And I let them. Because I crave that feeling of being loved all the while doubting I can even experience it.=/\= Good Gods woman just spit it out!

=/\=You remind me of Kodell, Dag. But only the best parts of what I had with him. Because… I think I might truly love you, but because of all of this with Kodell, I doubt it all. My feelings especially and I can’t seem to separate it all out. And I’m so sorry for that!=/\= Okay, now she was sobbing. =/\=And I feel terrible for possibly even causing you the remotest amount of pain.=/\= There. It was out.

~Faye Calloway, Data Specialist, USS Manhattan

Daggum sat back, well and truly stunned. His mind raced and his heart went even faster. She… she… lovedhim? She said she loved him… her words… him… she loved him.

His brain screamed and yelled at finally managed to get a single thought through. =/\= Faye… you haven’t hurt me… not even a little. So I need you to relax… and I need you to listen. And I need you to hear me, Faye… okay? =/\= and he leaned close to the screen. He took a deep breath and then started talking slowly and evenly.

Faye seemed to take a few moments to gather herself, her chest rising and falling slowly in measured breaths.

=/\= Faye… I am so sorry for the pain you have had. And I am angry… so very angry… at those that have hurt you. But I’m not them, Faye. And I won’t ever be them. =/\= and he smiled caringly at her.

=/\=I know,=/\= she whispered.

=/\= This Kodell… he seems from what you say to have been a decent guy. I mean, I heard stories growing up about Masters falling in love with slaves and giving them their freedom… but to us they were just ways of holding out hope. So as far as he goes, I can’t say anything one way or another… except I am glad you found love in a situation like that. And I’m sure it was mutual, because it’s you so why wouldn’t he? =/\= and he smiled at her.

Faye visible flushed and looked down for a moment.

=/\= But what I can speak of is the other one… Dez… I’ve known dozens like him. They call themselves ‘Majordomos’, and they are arrogant and manipulative pieces of s&^t. So what I don’t want you to ever do again is think about him and Kordell in the same thought. They aren’t the same… not even close. I know this because… well… because when a majordomo was found lacking, there was only one punishment. =/\= and he leaned back and his eyes filled with hurt and anger.

=/\= They throw them in the Pits with slaves like me. And we are supposed to make them suffer… more so than anyone else. =/\= and he leaned forward again. =/\= That’s what Dez was reacting to Faye… not you. The thought of you and his boss. The thought that you would replace him. If it wasn’t you, it was someone else after you. His reaction to you wasn’t a slap to your feelings for Kordell… or Kordell for you. It was simple self-preservation… because he knew that he was on the way out. That’s all. So please… never let that dung-heap color your thoughts again. Just remember that your time… screwed up as it was… was nothing short of miraculous. Trust me… it really was. =/\= and he smiled at her softly. =/\= If I could, I’d buy that Kordell guy a drink. He kept you safe so I could meet you. I guess I owe him because… =/\= and his voice caught in his throat and his eyes welled up with tears.

=/\= … because I love you more than anything or anyone in this universe, Faye Calloway. I have since I first saw you and I have never stopped. And I never will. =/\=

Daggum

Finally, after what probably seemed like ages, Faye smiled and the tears that fell were matched with a brightness in her eyes, like the sun had come in and (at least for the time) brushed the storm clouds away.

She laughed. A bright happy laugh. “Oh Gods, Dag, what do we do now?” Another laugh. =/\=I mean, I’ve waited my entire life to feel like this and now… how is this even supposed to work? =/\=

~Faye Calloway


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