Posted Sept. 23, 2022, 8:47 a.m. by Lieutenant Shock (Chief of Security) (Richard A)
Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (Counsellor) in Meeting the Counsellor for Boarding Psych Eval
Posted by Lieutenant Shock (Chief of Security) in Meeting the Counsellor for Boarding Psych Eval
Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (Counsellor) in Meeting the Counsellor for Boarding Psych Eval
Posted by… suppressed (2) by the Post Ghost! 👻(snip)
Janna didn’t expect him to simply jump into the exercise so quickly and without resistance, but ever one to go where her patient’s went, Janna rose to her feet and gazed at Shock with a neutral expression. She knew almost nothing about this Tkar, but it mattered little. This wasn’t about her acting skills, but how Shock processed his own reactions and approach to the situation.
She adopted a look of surprise. “Shock! I was not expecting to see you again. What brings you here?”
~Janna Kingston, CNS
Shock tried act as naturally as possible. Obviously, Kingston did not look at all, nor sound like, or appear like Tkar, but that was not the point, or so he thought. He was not quite sure what the point was, but he trusted Kingston’s psychological expertise.
“I wish to speak to you about our last parting. Are you willing to join me in that conversation, and if so, do you have the time now?”
He decided he’d get right to the point. Slightly unrealistic, perhaps, but logic would dictate that he needed to get his point across before Tkar had a chance to run away. Did he fear Tkar running away? Hm, he’d remember that thought until his and Kingston’s debrief afterwards. He assumed there would be a debrief any way.
– Lt Shock (COS)
Janna stiffened and folded her arms across her chest. “I suppose I have time,” she said nonchalantly, avoiding Shock’s gaze. “What is it you have to say?”
~Janna Kingston, CNS
Shock took a deep breath, and gathered his thoughts. This was harder than he had anticipated.
“I have wronged you.” he said, looking at “Tkar”. “I wish I had allowed us to speak with one another after our night of intimacy.” Shock wanted to explain why he didn’t, but he did not think it would help the situation right now. “I wish I had allowed us more time to be with one another. I regret my actions, and I have wronged you, and in so doing, I have wronged us.”
There, he had said it. He looked at “Tkar” again, gauging “his” reaction. What would now happen?
He knew of course this wasn’t Tkar, but he had found words that were as honest as he could make them. He just really wished he had said this to Tkar, that Janna was Tkar.
– Lt Shock (COS)
“Yeah, I agree, it was a thoughtless thing for you to do. And now you’ve apologize, so what is it you want from me?” Janna said, arms still folded tightly over her chest.
~Janna Kingston, CNS
Shock was taken aback by “Tkar’s” reaction. It was not Janna’s acting capabilities that he faulted, nor even the accuracy of Tkar’s behaviour. She had never met Tkar, yet, she seemed to act him in an uncanny way, as if she had met him. Transference of some kind, perhaps, Shock thought.
Moreover, “Tkar’s” question was valid, and hearing it expressed made him realize that simply apologizing was not what he needed. This would not give him the closure. But what was it? Shock didn’t know. He needed help.
“Dr Kingston,” he called, sat himself down in front of the counsellor, “might we take a break from the acting? ‘Tkar’s‘ question here made me realize that simply apologizing was not my unconscious goal.”
He paused, looked around the room. He suddenly felt years younger, as if a child or young adolescent, faking it in the real world while being utterly lost inside.
“I don’t know what I want, but this wasn’t it,” he said, his voice lower in volume than usual, almost whispering.
– Lt Shock (COS)
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