Posted by Lieutenant Auleraine Brison (Engineering Officer) in pre-sim - Movie and Revelations - Revna’s Office
“There was a fight in the mess hall. There was a officer, he was trapped in a type of waking nightmare. I guess is the best way to describe it. He was going to kill another officer. I…I couldn’t let him, Lera.” She looked over at her. “But though I know I did the right thing, and I’d do it again without hesitation. Those ensigns in the lounge, fighting, the shouting, the stunned watching crowd.” She looks away to breath, “It bothered me more than I want to admit. You never know what is going to trigger those memories. But we accept it, no matter how much we don’t want to, we deal with it, and we step forward. It’s a long process, but we are stronger.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
Lera didn’t realise she was gripping the woman’s hand till Revna squeezed it slightly. Slowly pulling away, not wanting to seem rude, she nodded. “I can understand the mess hall being a bother. Though as a Counselor I know you’ll deal with it a lot. I want you to know you can always come to me if you need a haven. And if you can’t get to me, just tap your comm.” She laughed. “You out rank me. Not like anyone would say I can’t come when summoned, can they?”
“I’ll keep that in mind, Lera. And you know you can call me any time. Even my written message if that’s easier. I know how to wiggle my way into places where I’m not expected to be. It will be our secret.”
After a moment she managed to finally calm her breathing. She smiled and shook her head. “No. Mardusk isn’t like others. But then, I think most on this sho aren’t exactly the stereotype of what their race seems to be. Are they? I’d like to think it’s us on this ship that are a unique thing. But my guess is most who go thru the Academy or Federation training, aren’t typical of their represented race. Huh?”
“Well, not always, but the best are certainly different. And adhering to your culture isn’t bad, necessarily. But this ship, this crew,” Revna looks thoughtful, “Is something unique and very special. We’re both lucky to have landed here.”
The movie had gone on without them and Lera glanced back at the screen. Without long at Revna, because she didn’t want to lose her nerve, she half asked half mumbled. “Do you want to see?” Her body kind of froze, just then. Her mind warring with itself on whether this was a good idea or not. But something said in her mind that she might never be this vulnerable again anytime soon.
Oh now that was difficult. Revna didn’t want to see out of curiosity or a sense of trade off. She knew Lera needed to do it. She needed to release the tension and the need to hide. She could tell though, that if she didn’t say yes, Lera may not open up to her again. Revna turned slightly to be more facing her. Her own scars still visible to an extent. Revna simply nodded her head in affirmation to Lera’s question, “Yes” she said softly. It needed to be Lera’s choice, but she also knew Lera needed to know Revna was willing to share in this with her.
Lt. Edman, Counselor
The softness of the yes somehow registered and Lera turned her head. “Mardusk made a program from the files. I don’t know how. He played it on the holodeck before we were together.” She looked away, staring blankly at the movie though not watching it. “He said he wanted to see my face.” The words from him still amazed her.
Without a word, she got up and moved towards the small console Revna had beside the pushed back couch. Without sitting down, she typed in the commands that brought the video feed to the console. “Done…” she said, simply, and moved to the chair furthest from the console to let Revna see.
Revna watched Lera get up and move towards the console. She lets the movie keep playing, letting Lera watch it and distract herself as she watches the replay that Lera has turned on for her. She watched quietly taking in all the details. Lucky for Lera, and Lucky for Mardusk, that the original rescue team was also male Orions. She was sure that was why Lera had no overtly fearful connections to Orions in general. That of course didn’t mean she wasn’t terrified to her core of the ones that did that to her.
She sat there for a moment, and putting the hypo back in the box and securing the neck of her uniform she thought carefully. Then as smoothly as possible she stood and walked over to the console and turned it off. She turned and looked at Lera, a woman, an officer, with a great deal of spine and fortitude. An iron will to live, and a titanium core that allowed her to endure that for so long, in order to save those who were with her. She walked over to her and knelt down in front of her, she took both her hands in hers. “Lera, you did a good thing. You save lives, there is no doubt about that. You know that, any one who was there, knows that. Anyone who knows you, knows that. But, and this is the hardest things, that does not mean the pain just goes away. Just because you choose knowing the consequences does not mean you aren’t allowed the pain. You are allowed to feel the pain, the fear, and to desperately wish you hadn’t had to make the choice even though you know you’d make it again.”
Revna watched her silently. “But together, we can make the pain and the memories less powerful over us. If you want to do that.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
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