pre-sim - Movie and Revelations - Revna's Office

Posted Oct. 14, 2020, 9:25 p.m. by Lieutenant Auleraine Brison (Engineering Officer) (Melissa Aragon)

Posted by Lieutenant Revna Edman (Counselor) in pre-sim - Movie and Revelations - Revna’s Office

Posted by Lieutenant Auleraine Brison (Engineering Officer) in pre-sim - Movie and Revelations - Revna’s Office

Posted by Lieutenant Revna Edman (Counselor) in pre-sim - Movie and Revelations - Revna’s Office


Lera saw Revna take her hands, but she couldn’t honestly say she felt it. How would you hurt him? The question rolled over and over in her mind. Hurt who? Oh.. Mardusk. A man who cared enough for her he was willing to slay the deamons in the holo for her. She slowly looked up and shrugged. “I don’t know? Maybe I’ll wake up sometime and not want him near me? Or lash out and hit him, struggle ‘cause I think he is them… I don’t know.”

Revna nodded, processing it. Lera was was not afraid of Mardusk. She was afraid that she would be afraid of him, in a moment of panic and mistake him for the Orions she was terrified of. Revna had seen it before. The fear that you do something to push the one you love away when you need them so desperately to be your anchor in the storm. “Lera, Mardusk is a strong man. Physically and mentally. If you wake up and need space to breath to process, it is not going to hurt him. He respects you enough to know you have to heal your way.” Revna had to stop herself from saying that Mardusk loved her. Oh she had no doubt, she’d seen it at dinner, but she also didn’t know where in their relationship they were with that. And right now was not the time to drop that bomb on Lera. “Lera, I want you to think. Tell me something that Mardusk says to you, that only he says to you, that makes you feel safe or happy while you are with him.” If she could pin point a phrase or a word, or help Mardusk come up with one, she could help Lera not worry so much about hurting Mardusk if she woke up in a panic. Lera would recognize that that phrase identified Mardusk. And that way, if she was in a panic, he could say it and if it worked, Lera would actually recognize him outside of her flashback.

She looked back down and willed herself to feel Revna, her fingers slowly curling to hold the woman’s hands. She thought she was merely cradling the Counselor’s hands in her own. She wasn’t aware the grip was almost as if she would drown if she let go. She didn’t look up at the question of talking to him. “I guess… I mean… I don’t know if he’ll talk to you.” She finally looked up, tears welling in the back of her eyes. “I am not scared of Orions. You know that, right?” She couldn’t think of anything else to say. She just knew that she didn’t want Revna to go back and say that to Mardusk.


Revna squeezed her hands back, keeping Lera anchored to their conversation. She held Lera’s gaze. “I know you aren’t.” She nods her head towards the dark screen, “You’re afraid of THOSE Orions. And that is two totally seperate things.” Lera was feeling the trauma though. Her body felt it, but her mind was unable to process it. Lera was either going to panic or she was going to bolt. She was going to use a grounding technique with her, she’d tell Mardusk about it too so that if Lera was in the middle of a flashback he could walk her through it.

Lera shook her head and glanced around. “I don’t know. I just know it’s him.” She let her hands go loose in Revna’s grasp

“I know this is going to sound strange, but Lera, tell me something you taste right now.”

“What?” Lera looked at her confused a moment. “Ummm my drink, I guess…”

“Two things you smell”

“Three things you can feel”

“Four things you can hear”

“And Five things you can see.”

Lt. Edman, Counselor

She shook her head. Lera wasn’t sure why Revna was asking. She pulled her hands back as if the woman was asking more of her than she could give. “I see you, smell the food, hear the holo…” She shook her head again and stood up, using her calves to push her chair back so she didn’t topple the woman over. “I don’t… I can see and hear just fine.” There was a moment of panic in her eyes. She wanted to bolt. But in that moment it was as if she wasn’t sure which way to go. She was watching a holo with Revna, she shouldn’t be this upset. She took a very deep breath and pulled back in on herself. Revna would recognize the signs. Lera was rebuilding her armor. She knew she had let loose more than she meant to and was trying to take it all back.


Lera wasn’t ready for this. Revna was concerned that Lera wasn’t even aware of what she’d shared. Lera was in a lot worse shape than she’d realized. She let Lera pull herself back in. That wasn’t a great long term solution, but the mind did that for a reason. The grounding technique had certainly helped her refocus, but now how much to tell Lera. Revna kept a hold of her hands though as Lera stood up. She tugged on Lera’s hands to indicate she needed help. There was no way Revna could get up on her own, not easily. She stood with Lera’s help and moved with her back over to their pile of pillows, popcorn, and drinks. Revna looked up at the screen…perfect timing!

She tugged Lera back to the floor with her. “Hey Lera…look! It’s Mardusk!” The scene showed a guard harrasing the spaniard swordsman and calls for the Brute Squad. Fezzik, the giant, appears, “I’m on the brute squad.”
Guard, “You are the brute squad.” Fezzik thumps the guard on the top of the head with a fist, knocking him out.
Revna elbows Lera in the side playfully. “Am I right? Tell me I’m right. Please?” Revna turns the conversation back to girl talk and being friends. “I am so going to call Mardusk the Brute squad the next time I see him.”

Lt. Edman, Counselor

When Lera felt Revna pull on her, something inside her shifted. She eased up and helped Revna to her feet, then helped her settle on the cushions. “You all right?” She asked, but then Revna was pointing to the screen and a man that was certainly nearly the size of Mardusk. With one hand still holding the Counselor’s, she didn’t realize she was moving to her knees on the cushions beside the woman.

She watched the scene and actually laughed. It was genuine. She was pulled back inside herself now and the painful moments of a few minutes ago was temporarily forgotten. At the elbow to her side, Lera nodded and smiled. “It is. It is. But if you call him brute squad you do it at your own risk. I’m not taking the chance.” She laughed. Reaching over to Revna’s almost empty glass, she rose and took up her own to go and get refills. “And something tells me a slight bump on the head wouldn’t drop Mar as easily as it did the Fezz fella.” She was smiling at the image of some person standing up to Mar and trying a single thump to his head as his chance of escape. It wasn’t boding well for the ‘other guy’ in Lera’s thoughts.

She came back over and handed Revna the drink. “What else do you need? You look tired. Maybe we should finish this later?” She could tell that standing up had been difficult and now the engineer was once more in protective mode. Her own issues so far tucked back in her mind she wasn’t even aware they had occurred.


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