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Side Sim - Lera and ... Lera (Counselor)

Posted Jan. 19, 2021, 4:47 p.m. by Lieutenant Revna Edman (Counselor) (Jennifer Ward)

Posted by Lieutenant Auleraine Brison (Engineering Officer) in Side Sim - Lera and … Lera (Counselor)

She hadn’t left Engineering but five minutes prior when she tapped the chime on the Counselor’s office. Murmuring about inconveniences and ship duties under her breath, she waited for the woman to answer. She just wanted to get this done and over with. Being told she was unfit for duty was sitting worse with her than the nightmares, at this point.

Lt Auleraine Brison
Engineer

Revna was surprised by how long it took Lera to show up at her door. She’d sent the message before Lera started her shift. Mardusk had come early and quickly and their discussion had been quick and informative. Revna, had spent the night before doing some checking and what she found desturbed her in more ways than one. What also concerned her was that, being on Lera’s emergency contact list, the CE hadn’t contacted her about the duty restriction. Even if he wasn’t approved she was still surprised he hadn’t contacted her anyway.

Hearing the chime, she got up and walked over to the door, she was in for a fight, she knew it, and she wasn’t sure she was physically well enough for the fight Lera could put up. She put that thought out of her mind, it didn’t matter if she was or not, it was her job, and Lera was her friend and her patient. She opened the door and stood out of the way, letting Lera come in and take a seat, or pace, or yell, whatever her preference. This time, Revna didn’t bother to offer a drink.
Lt. Edman, Counselor

Lera stood a moment as Revna opened the door. She had been ranting all the way down here and yet, seeing the woman, she was left unable to scream at her as planned. When Revna stepped out of the way, she came in, oddly silent and waited for the door to close. Half way to the couch she shook her head. Her voice, oddly calm, as she glanced at the woman, crossing her arms to keep from flailing. “I was doing fine, Lieutenant. My work’s never been in question. So why take me off extra duty? It doesn’t make sense.” She knew they were in for a longer than fifteen minute session, but she didn’t care. She wanted this straightened out so she could get back to work.

Lera
Engineer

Revna kept her arms down, open and relaxed. There would be a moment where she’d need to cross her arms, take a firm stance and not back down, but right now was not it. “Because you want the nightmares to stop, and that man of yours pays attention to detail. Every time you’ve had a nightmare, it’s becuase you’re over worked, taking on too many extra shifts. So until you and I find a way to manage your nightmares, no extra shifts. I didn’t say you were unfit for duty, I said no extra shifts. And you’ve put in above and beyond your share of extras, you’ve earned the break.” What REALLY made Revna furious was the utter lack of care the previous junior counselors and the engineering staff seemed to have about Lera. The number of times she almost died and didn’t from sheer dumb luck made her heart race. Lera didn’t even know that she was having episodes. Lera didn’t even remember showing Revna the holodeck program. It terrified Revna, and Lera was mad at her and it was going to get worse, but she didn’t care, it would be worth it, in the end.
Lt Edman, Counselor

“Fine… so I’ll take some time off. Stop taking extra shifts for a while. Then I’ll sleep better and you and Mar can be at ease. Will that suffice?” She knew it wouldn’t, but she had to try. Moving towards the seating area, she walked past it to the window. She wasn’t getting out of here in the next five minutes, she was sure. But it didn’t mean she needed to get all comfy and settled into the couch to be over analyzed.

“If they are worse when I’m exhausted, then stopping the extra shifts will suffice.” She turned and nodded to the woman with a slight smile as if she had made up her mind and Revna was going to agree and let it go at that.

Lera
Engineer

Revna nodded, “Dropping the extra shifts for awhile will help. But that’s not an end all, Lera. What happens when you HAVE to work extra, when the work load, and emergencies, and everything else, add up? Because it will start again, and then what? You really want to leave it at ‘take a mini vacation?’ ” Revna contemplated her for a few minutes. She didn’t expect Lera to get comfortable, this wasn’t a comfortable process. “You told me the other day you didn’t know how to make it stop and you want it to stop. I want to help you. Mardusk wants to help you. I won’t lie and say that we can make this go away, but we, you and I, can put you in charge of it. There will be set backs, but it will get better if you want it.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor

She glanced at the woman and wanted to hate her for throwing her own words back at her. But she couldn’t. Revna looked tired and she half wondered if the woman was faking it so she would be kind to her and not explode. Was that a Counseling technique? To act worn down and ragged to those who will feel a need to protect you so they aren’t a liability? She didn’t think so, but wouldn’t put it past the woman to use something like that to keep her calm and on even keel.

Revna was tired, in fact, she was exhausted. She knew she was getting worse, the scar tissue creating stiff fibrous tissue in her lungs. Nash had pointed out to her she really needed to stop doing so much, so she had. She hadn’t said out right that she would, but they both had understood she had too. Now she had a couple of appointments as week, but other than that, it was Lera. She’d promised she’d help Lera, and she was going to, even if that was the only person she saw. She tried to hide how tired she was, but she’d been in the office for two days straight.

“Yes, I want it to stop. But you just said Mardusk said it’s bad when I’m worn out. So if I stop taking extra shifts, I’ll get rest and be able to handle the crises when they come. Crisis on this ship don’t last months or years, so the rest I get not doing extra shifts will be fine. Won’t it?” The last query came out almost a choked lilt of hope. If she could get out of here with just giving up extra shifts, she’d be ok with that. She just hoped the Chief would be.

Lera
Eng

“Yes when you’re worn out, but other things other extra shifts can exhaust you, so that’s not a good solution. It’s a temporary solution to a bigger problem. I wish it was Lera, I really do.” With a sigh she walked over to the display screen and pulled up a file she’d been working on for the last two days. And began to play it for Lera. It showed moments where Lera was easily startled, which wasn’t bad in of itself, but a small indicator of the bigger problem. More concerning were the moments where Lera totally detached and wasn’t in the moment. Stretching over the railing toward the engine to work on it, her eyes go glassy, she drops her tool, and almost falls over the railing, and similar situations. After words, her behavior is concerning as it is not typical of Lera. “What about these moments?”
Lt Edman, Counselor


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