Posted Aug. 12, 2020, 4:21 p.m. by Lieutenant Junior Grade Kai Oliver Kingstone (Chief Science Officer) (Jay Luistro)
Posted by Lieutenant Revna Edman (Counselor) in Counselor’s Officer - Counseling Check-In, long time no see
Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Kai Oliver Kingstone (Chief Science Officer) in Counselor’s Officer - Counseling Check-In, long time no see
Posted by Lieutenant Revna Edman (Counselor) in Counselor’s Officer - Counseling Check-In, long time no see
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“Yeah I know. For the last months I kept writing a diary, would you like to read it?” He asked the counselor playing with his thumbs.Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
Revna nodded slowly, took a sip of her drink. “If you would like to share it, yes I will read it. Or if you’d rather tell me yourself you can do that too. Or maybe,” she looked to see how Lt. Kingstone was doing, “there are only certain things in your diary you want to share now. It’s important for you to understand that you are free to share as much or as little as you like. If you would like me to read the diary I will and then we can meet again to talk about it.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
Kai took a PaDD from nowhere… I mean where did it appeared? But anyway, taking the “PaDD”, the CSO tapped some buttons, then submitted a request and the LCARS server did its fuzzy things. The diary in reality was written on paper but Kai loved keeping stuff backed-up and indeed some scanned formats were saved in his personal database “Here… you may give a look to everything. I mean I am not shy… except for some part like page 237 and 299. OH and page 255 especially!” He nervously chuckled.
OOC: I do not have the diary written somewhere but you can assume it has plenty of happy and weird stuff. But from the last 30 days, his pages are filled with stress-signals.
Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
Revna brought Kai a refill of his drink, then she took the PaDD. She quietly reads through the journal. She keeps her face neutral except for one or two parts that were obviously meant to be comical, and her mouth twitches slightly. Then she gets to the last thirty days worth of entries. These are much different than the laid back happy Lt from before. He’s obviously stresssed. The pages don’t indicate what may have triggered it.
Lt. Kingstone was there for help, he’d said so himself, but Revna didn’t like to impart false trust. She wanted to earn it, but she also didn’t want to stand on rank either. So no first names and no rank, rather an up front approach. “What happened 30 days ago?” She taps the PaDD with one finger. “Your entries changed and your tone of your writing did as well. What happened?”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
“Nothing. I guess yes something but nothing? Got some terrible news about my aunt who got injured during a terroristic attack where she worked. Since then I found working harder but I mean… I managed to do everything. Not even the experiments kept me thinking about my aunt. In the end she recovered but I do have memories of something that happened to me when I was younger and I always feared something like that could happen to my relatives. I think that might be the why.” The Lieutenant then shrugged “oh and thanks for the refill. If you want you can read those pages I said to avoid… you may want to have a laugh ahah. Not really good with women, that’s why dogs are better… I guess?” He smiled and took a brief sip of the drink. It has passed a while since he talked with a Counselor but the effects were pretty much immediate “Okay, maybe not day 255… it is too embarrassing, mate.” He blushed red pepper.
Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
“I’ll only read them if you want me to. That is always up to you.” Revna contemplated. “Have you ever talked with anyone, professionally, about what happened to you when you were younger? It is very normal for events that happen to others to remind us of our own significant events. It can trigger not just the memories but the emotions as well. Since you like to utilize writing on a daily basis I would suggest when you begin to think about your aunt or what happened to you, you write out what you are thinking and feeling. It helps to distance you from the effects of the flasback and it allows you to go back and analyse what you were thinking and feeling at the time.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
“I honestly never did such thing. I think I’ll do some writing for that and geez it will hard. It is just terrible, I lost some awesome people that never had the chance to grow up and maybe join me in this mighty endeavor which is Starfleet. Let me tell you it wasn’t at all a beautiful experience. It was terrifying…” Kai kept drinking and drinking more. He was certainly nervous in that moment and as he laid down the glass on the table, the Lieutenant had almost some tears in his eyes. The incident happened his birthday party had him regretting to enjoy another party whatsoever in his life and indeed he haven’t done one in years “Mrs. Edman have someone told you that you’re a fantastic counselor?” He chuckled giggling a bit. It was perhaps just a way to distract from the real pain.
Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
Revna could see that he was becoming agitated, upset, by what he was remembering. She ignored the compliment for a moment though she smiled softly. He’d just taken several sips of his drink, this was good time to practice grounding, to help him process his own thoughts and feelings, to stop the fight or flight response. “Kai, tell me something you are tasting right now.” To help him she pointed at his glass.
Kai took a breath and then he took note of the taste he had on his tongue “I feel the bitter of the Chinotto orange and the sweetness of the drink sugar, all mixed in what it is this soft drink.”
“Now tell me 2 scents you can smell right now.”
Smelling deep, Kai noticed the fresh smell of the Counselor and the office “I smell you, and the office itself have a particular scent. I like it, both of them.” He smiled
“3 things you can feel, physically through touch.”
“I can feel the sofa, my rough skin and also the slippery glass in my hand. I feel them all more concretely and so… real. Tho I would need to use some sort of cream to get a smother skin.”
“Now, name 4 things you can hear within this room or within yourself.”
The Lieutenant closed his eyes, then his mouth. For a couple of seconds he tasted with his ears the environment and the ship itself. It was a gorgeous apparatus “I hear my voice, the ship’s soft rumble, the crew outside the office and a constant clock tick. I don’t know where it comes from but I hear it. It is so soothing.”
“And finally 5 things you can see.”
“I see the colors of the office, your face and the decorations. I also see my PaDD and finally my laps.” He smiled again.
Revna waited for him to finish. “Do you feel better? Do you want to do that again, or do you want to talk about your memory?”
Lt. Edman, Counselor
“I do feel better, thank you Mrs. Edman. I am ready to talk about what happened… I would just love a glass of water, If I may.” He asked to the Counselor gently. His mood was now chiller, the exercise worked perfectly! He should’ve done it more often.
Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
Revna got up and requested a glass of water, cool for the Lt from the replicator and then she brought it over and handed it to him. She sat down and waited. Kai seemed to have taken to the exercise, and that was good, but that didn’t mean he was ready to explode with information about his past. He had to find his starting point, where he thought it all began, or at least where the story should start.
Lt. Edman, Counselor
“Water. The most basic element, yet it is the best resource ever existed. Ahah…” he nervously giggled, sipping some of the water “Alright. I do remember stuff and some I have deleted can’t be recovered. But what I do remember is that there was this day in my childhood where I gave a party. I remember still the faces of all invitees, they were all my bestfriends onboard my father’s ship. At that time we got the best room, on the Starboard flank of the fantastic USS Hegemony. I really loved that ship but as I gave that party we contemporarily entered a pirate-known zone and it was matter of hours that on us three ships tried to board the Hegemony.” Kai took a pause, drank another sip and as some tear came on his eyes, he stared the still water in the glass in his hand and he sighed “We knew what to do, but we had not time to reach the muster stations. A disruptor charge hit our lounge and a rapid decompression happened. Some of my friends laid in the cold space suffocating, while I had the damn luck to survive as I was the nearest to the door and had a strong grip. Eventually an Officer managed to activate the emergency force field but the damage was already done. Three of them were flying out there while I and the others remained traumatized or lightly injured. I must admit it was a pain to give up to birthday parties but I haven’t… I haven’t done any in the last 12 years…” at that point he could not resist anymore and his tears became a flood, a cry that was perhaps painful.
Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO
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