Posted Oct. 6, 2020, 3:54 p.m. by Lieutenant Alexis Bonner (Assistant Chief Medical Officer) (Jennifer Ward)
Posted by Lieutenant Commander Ever Zeanar (Chief of Psychiatry) in SB 157 Bonner’s Quarters- In or Out
This is how it happens. Faint light breaks through overtaking the dark edges, shedding the last of sleep. For a split moment disorganised without memory, almost a type of amnesia, lost between dream and reality. Then sounds of silent screams breaks the barrier, jarring back to this time and place. Fighting, clashing, attempting to return to the mask of an alternate reality to no avail. Only a brief lull until the echo subsides and with eyes wide open, steady breathing, he fades back into the shadows awaiting the next rem cycle for her to join him again until eternity reigns in the afterlife to be one again. Ever pulled the sheet taut under her chin, rolled and faced the door. Mixture of honeysuckle and linseed oil filled her lungs like breath from a grave permanently open, waiting for it’s occupant to come home. Her hand felt the emptiness behind her as the last of the undercurrent of Kemis’s presence evaporated.An hour later, dressed, coffee drank, sleep and dreams long out of her mind, Ever stood outside Bonner’s quarters. Completely focussed on the task at hand, she was like a targ with a bone. AS she pressed the chime, her thoughts drifted off to cylinder hidden in her quarters. Whatever secrets it held would have to wait for a few more weeks.
Zeanar, CoP
Alexis had been up ALL night. Ever, she could have told her. She lied. Well she omitted the truth and that was a LIE. She probably even knew he was here. She’d gone over the research she could get a hold of, over and over again. What she knew from what Ever had told her, the idea had merit. They just weren’t able to see what they were missing. Alexis was sure she could figure it out, but was she willing. Before Soulis had found her on the walkway above the promenade she’d been so willing. Now…she’d cried till she was sick. She indulged in ice cream, chocolate, icecream floats, all types of sweet comfort food. All half touched and forgotten. Her mind raging from the research and it’s problems to her own personal torment. She had no idea of Soulis was part of this project Ever wanted her help on. But the risk…it was too great. Alexis knew that now. The sound of his voice, his nearness, had hurt far more than she wanted it to.
Ever had said she thought Soulis loved her, wanted to marry her. Tried to lull her into what might have been, falsly heal her heart and ravaged soul. And then, as if his name summoned him like a magic talisman he’d been there. He’d been....she sobs quietly…watching her, keeping an eye on her. Alexis had spent that last few hours, in her sleep deprived, emotionally ravaged state, writing her resignation. Requesting a transfer somewhere else, somewhere away from Ever, somewhere she could hide from Soulis. Alexis hated herself for that, but she had a right to self-preservation, didn’t she? One of them she could handle, but both? And what if Soulis was assigned to the Ogawa, what if he was going with them. And like those years ago when she’d run from them, she was going to run now. It would wreck her career to give up this spot that she had worked SO hard for. Her career, all that was left for her, but she would. She’d go home, practice medicine there, away from all this.
And it was in that ravaged state that Alexis, in a fresh uniform, her hair rather than neatly in a bun half falling out, and the fading signs of her night of soul rending tears she opened the door to find Ever waiting for her. “Get. Away. From. Me.”
Lt. Bonner, AMO
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