Posted Jan. 22, 2022, 10:51 a.m. by Lieutenant Alexis Bonner (Assistant Chief Medical Officer) (Jennifer Ward)
Posted by Lieutenant Alexis Bonner (Assistant Chief Medical Officer) in Side Sim: Arboretum
Posted by Captain Willow Taylor (Commanding Officer) in Side Sim: Arboretum
Alexis shook her head. “It cost 1 credit for five of them. She has more. I just keep them out of reach or she would leave them scattered all over the ship.” She seemed distracted but in actuality she was considering Cai. She nodded in agreement. “I know where we can go.” Maybe Solomon was rubbing off on her, but the way Taylor was holding her arms made Alexis think that a drink might be in order. She wasn’t sure though, but even Alexis knew that wanting to talk somewhere else meant Taylor wanted privacy.
They took the lift to deck 3, forward starboard section. Alexis approached the door, the sign read Lt. Solomon Kane, CSO. The door slid open, lights on full, and she stepped inside. All the windows were closed and the quarters were empty. “Please have a seat, Cpt. I don’t really know about making a drink choice, or what all is in the cabinet, but would you like something or from the replicator?”
Willow followed quietly, she hesitated a moment outside the door to Kane’s quarters. She didn’t want to think she was intruding on the lives of her officers, but she out that aside and stepped over the threshold. “Tea…would be great thanks.” She said looking around for somewhere to sit. She lowered her self onto the nearest chair and suddenly seemed very aware that she was in her workout gear. She gave a rueful smile.
“You know, they always tell you not to show weakness in front of your crew. But I wonder if they mean don’t be mortal. Who wants someone fallible leading them.” She said.
Alexis requested the tea from the replicator and brought it over to Taylor, then she sat down across from Taylor with her own glass ice water. “I don’t know, mortality and fallibility is at the core of human innovation. It’s what has driven all of our most notable people. Confidence does not mean you aren’t fallible, just that your certain you will discover something, just the right or wrong path is the question. Something is still discovered, still learned.”
Willow nodded her thanks for the tea and wrapped her hands around the mug. “True. Just…how many captains let teenagers blow stuff up around the crew.” She shook her head and taking a sip from the tea looked around again.
Alexis tipped her head to the side thinking, “Picard did. Wesley Crusher caused all kinds of problems on the Enterprise D. He had to help fix them too.” Alexis wasn’t sure if it was her place to say or not but she did anyway. “He’s bored. Not like normal kids. His mind is hungry and constantly analyzing, constantly devouring information. Sometimes the only way to make it stop is to do more, learn more, experiment more. You know what he made was brilliant. Yes the ball caught on fire but if I had to guess, he miscalculated the moisture ratios. He made a mistake. It happens, but for those of us that are smart it’s really important to know that we can, will, and are allowed to make mistakes.” Alexis shrugged, “My mom always said the hardest thing about raising me was the tight rope she walked between allowing me to be me, and having faith I wouldn’t blow anything up too much and where to draw the line.”
“I…” she sighed. “I know he is. I’ve tried…for years. He was in…advanced classes, experienced tutors…access to labs and then there was an accident. Like today a mistake that caused repercussions we all had to live with. He isn’t interested in the academy…he’s just…bored and rebelling.”
“He doesn’t think inside of the space given. He sees the world differently and doesn’t know how to make you see it the way he does. I used to think my parents didn’t want to see my point of view. Then I realized they couldn’t - not without help. It was simple for him, he was just playing with Frigga. There was no other thought than that. Then…oops. He made the game better…or was trying to. So he found one way to launch a tennis ball…and make it flame at the same time. Yes someone could have gotten hurt, and that’s a problem. I would wager though…his frustration is the other accident. He has all this stuff in his head but can’t do anything with it because someone might get hurt. And that is difficult. When you’re smart people expect you to have the right answer all the time, every time, immediately. And never ever make a mistake.”
Willow sighed, pondering her words.
“I take it this is a secure space…if you wanted to better explain…” she nodded at the ring.
Alexis looked around. It was pretty stark. By the bedroom door there was always Solomon’s latest sketch, piles of PaDDs on the desk, and then Frigga’s toys. “That old Earth saying: locked up tighter than Fort Knox? Well, Fort Knox is jealous.” Alexis glanced at the ring. “It’s…Solo....Lt. Kane…he made it. It’s a real diamond, real gold, but he put a micro-transporter scrambler in the setting so I couldn’t be beamed off the ship. There is also a radiographic isotope in the crystalline structure so he could track me if I did end up off the ship.” Alexis resisted the urge to fidget with the stone and turn it back on. “If not for this, I wouldn’t be here. It was…it is a prop, a tool. It is exactly what it looks like, but it also isn’t.”
Willow considered the words. “So…an excellent way of keeping you with us and also…congratulations. Again.” She smiled and sipped her tea. “Are you happy with that?l”
Alexis shook her head, she wasn’t being clear, “But it’s not. It is an engagement ring, but it’s not mine. Not like that anyway. It’s all over now, I can take it off…maybe I’m supposed to. I don’t know what to do with it.” Clearly she was trying to discuss something she couldn’t get her head to work through.
Tilting her head to one side the red head considered the woman before her. “Ok..how about you help me work out what to do with Cai and In return if you explain what you mean I’ll see if I can offer some insight?”
Alexis turned her glass in hand staring through the air at nothing a moment. “I am not very good with children, but I will certainly try.”
Willow nodded. “Thank you, I’d appreciate any advice.” She glanced around again. “So I trust things are actually more settled now?” She asked and sipped her tea.
Alexis gaze settled on that middle space between them and a stylus appeared out of nowhere that began to tap out a rhythm on her leg. “When I was 17, I was boarding the Hathaway for my first tour of service. I skipped my cadet tour and went straight to my assignment. I would have been very angry, very…” Alexis wasn’t really efficient at describing qualitative information like feelings (what was with the people on this ship?). “Frustrated and useless if I had been given a room to tinker in and not real work. Experimenting and tinkering are amazing, but I needed purpose too. What does Cai like to do, what does he like to study or experiment with?”
To her second question Alexis paused again and then nodded, “Yes more settled. That problem won’t be bothering anyone ever again.” She drank, almost gulped, the water from the glass. “I don’t know what to do with it, Cpt. It was a prop to make our unwanted visitor think we were engaged. I…I’m not very good with relationships. My experiences have been few and somewhat horrific.” Alexis supposed that was the closest word to describe it. “It’s not that I can’t socialize or don’t understand, it just never really interested me. I don’t relate to others and they don’t relate to me. But Kane does. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with this ring or the questions that people are going to ask. It’s not like I can tell them classified information. Kane would tell me to do whatever I want to do. But I don’t know what that is.”
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