Posted by Captain Rende Asam (Captain) in Side Sim - CNS Office - Reviews and Understanding (Tag CO)

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Janusz Korczak (Counselor) in Side Sim - CNS Office - Reviews and Understanding (Tag CO)

Posted by Captain Rende Asam (Captain) in Side Sim - CNS Office - Reviews and Understanding (Tag CO)
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“Of course.” Korczak responded. “That is all of the records I wanted to discuss at this time… so now let us talk about you. May as well get your assessment done while you are here, yes?” and he crossed one leg over the other and smiled slightly.

Korczak, CNS

“What is that saying, ‘I am an open book.’ Not really, more like a old closed dusty tome sitting on a back self.” She sipped her coffee over a grin at her own awkward humor. “Where do you want to start?” She was old there was a lot they could talk about.
Rende, CO

“Wherever you like.” came the measured reply with a small smile of his own. “I often find it better to let the one being assessed do the heavy lifting… at least at the beginning.” and he chuckled. “But, if you need a nudge… then start by telling me about why you want to be the Captain of a star ship?”

Korczak, CNS

“No nudge needed but to answer your question, I don’t. I was retired, happily annoying my husband with a daily honey-do-list and visiting archeological sites around Earth when I wanted. I did the command track at Academy a long time ago because it suited me but I never desired a ship of my own. I owed the admiral a favor.” She sipped her coffee. Not bad but it wasn’t Eldorin’s. “Ireland. That one word encompasses so much. It’s where I finally grew up and where I will always go home too, and where I learned that I can’t repair past mistakes but I can do better.”
Rende, CO

Korczak’s face remained passive, but when Rende finished he said “You owed the Admiral a favor… I see. Do you think that, rather than having been dedicated to the goal of Command, that you may be hindered in anyway?”

Korczak, CNS

“Yes, that’s how they got me out of retirement.” Rende considered his question. “As I said I have completed the command track. But I also said that I never desired a ship. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t want a command. There are other areas to command than ships. From 2302 to 2367 I served as head of Star Fleet security for the Sol region. I loved it. Getting to work with younger officers; coordinating with ships and star bases, and other locations; providing training; advising. So no I don’t think that I never wanted a ship will hinder me. It won’t be the first time I have had to sit in the big chair and make decisions. But we all have things that hinder us. And that’s why we have counselors on board now, to make sure we don’t succumb to them and are aware of them. For me it would be my concern that I will succumb to my arrogance in thinking that I know better because I am so long lived.”

Rende, CO

“Do you consider your longevity an asset… or an obstacle?”

Korczak, CNS

“It can be a bit if both. I have the ability to look back and see the long term consequences of my or organizational actions. To understand how my actions or inactions will play out, and allow it to temper my instinctual gut reactions in the moment. But it also can lend itself to second guessing or arrogance. 250 years ago I would have said it was a hinderence because I hadn’t grown up as it were. But now I try to make it an asset and use my vast experiences, positive and negative, to evaluate a situation thoughtfully.”
Rende CO

Korczak nodded, although his face remained passive. When Rende finished speaking, he looked at her for a moment and then asked “Looking back on your time… what is your biggest regret? What troubles you most of your past?”

Korczak, CNS

There was immediate recognition in her eyes of the answer. “We waited too long to tell our son what we were. World War III had broken out. Eldorin and I swore we wouldn’t get involved in another planetary conflict. If we had told Tabris sooner, maybe he would have left with us. We would have left sooner. Eldorin and I fought over it. We never got to tell him. We went to his apartment to have dinner. The sirens started going off, bombings. We all ran for the exit, but Tabris turned back to help one of his older neighbors. They didn’t make it out.” Rende looked up at the ceiling and then closed her eyes, tears tracking down her face. She was quiet for several minutes. Then wiping at her cheeks, “The grief never gets easier. I regret not telling him. I regret hesitating to leave. I’m a tactical expert. I knew it was going to happen. There are so many things I could have done differently then.”
Rende, CO

Korczak handed her a tissue and then said “Typically here, I would try and see if you realized that your regret was either well-founded or simply an unconscious way of punishing yourself for past transgressions. But I do believe that time grants perspective… and that you have had. So instead I will simply say that I am sorry for your loss. And I am sorry that past choices still bring you pain. Regardless of our time in the universe… regret is as timeless as we are.”

Korczak, CNS