Posted by Lieutenant Siennadye Nox (Counselor) in Alt. Universe: Runabout In Space - Operation Bedlam

Posted by Lieutenant Siennadye Nox (Counselor) in Alt. Universe: Runabout In Space - Operation Bedlam

Posted by Captain Johann Dvorak (CO) in Alt. Universe: Runabout In Space - Operation Bedlam
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Eventually Sienna left the Bridge to go settle herself into her quarters. She didn’t know what to do about her interest in Johann. Really, was there anything to do at this point? Probably not. Perhaps she should get some sleep. Her dreams often helped her trudge through her mental troubles. They might help her now. She paused for a moment outside the door to the quarters she had assigned Johann. With an eye roll directed toward herself for even thinking about knocking, she ran her fingers through her hair and continued to her own quarters. Stupid, stupid, stupid. What would she have said?

Nothing. She would have stood there like an idiot. No need to continue in that vein. She had already painted herself as one earlier.

Nox, Not-the-CNS

The door she had just stopped in front of opened. Johann stopped in the door frame, and looked in her general direction as she walked by. He was hoping to have a minute to think through what he was actually going to do before seeing her.

So far the worst thing is that I’m standing here like an idiot, he thought in the answer to his own question from earlier.

– Johann Dvorak, Not-the-CO

The door opening had her reacting automatically to the sound. Her feet kept going for a few steps even while her head turned at the sound. Her brow arched in surprise as she realized she was seeing Johann. Her mind didn’t have any time to really contemplate why he was coming out of his quarters. It was still stumbling over her own intentions and what could have been. Her feet skidded to a halt.

She had to laugh at herself and the timing. She smiled inadvertently at her inner thoughts and asked, “Everything okay?”

Nox, Not-the-CNS

He sighed at this question, not sure how to answer it. Screw it, he thought.

“Nah.” It was a remarkably casual statement; the kind one might utter as if they had been asked “Would you like fries with that?” or “Did you try out that new holonovel that Bill was raving about the other day?”

“I feel guilty. I wasn’t fair to you. And I hurt you. I want to ‘fix’ it.” He didn’t actually know what that meant.

– Johann Dvorak, CO

She turned the rest of the way to face him. She leaned against the corridor wall and crossed her arms, sighing deeply. Sienna pressed her lips together as she considered what her reply to that could possibly be, It was a very characteristic motion both Siennas did. Finally she looked up at him. “I don’t know what can be done. It’s not as though you set out to hurt me. You feel what you feel and I honestly should have expected your decision.” She shrugged.

“I am not her. I can’t be her. When I say I want something with you, I don’t mean by pretending to be her. I mean, as myself, a woman with her own desires wanting a man she finds attractive. But like I said, I am a big girl. If you dont want me that way, I can handle it.”

Nox, Not-the-CNS

He contemplated this for a bit, mulling it over. “I don’t really know you,” he said. “I mean, not really. It doesn’t mean I wouldn’t want to. There’s different kinds of wanting.”

“That’s true.”

It was a series of thoughts that did not seem to converge on any conclusion. It was murky and confused. The door was literally open for something, but he didn’t exactly know what.

There’s also different kinds of “knowing”, he thought. It was not intended for her to overhear it, but she would have had no trouble doing so.

– Johann Dvorak, Not-the-CO

That’s also true She replied in her mind with a small rueful smile. “So, we get to know each other a bit on this trip. Nothing like a mission to see what a person is like. You know where I stand on the physical. We can just leave it as no expectations and no pressure.”

Nox. Not-the-CNS

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