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Dasca's Apartment- Aftermaths are Messy

Posted March 17, 2023, 4:12 p.m. by Captain Eela Dasca (Lt. Governor) (Lindsay B)

Posted by Lieutenant Tandra Mika (Counselor) in Dasca’s Apartment- Aftermaths are Messy

Posted by Captain Eela Dasca (Lt. Governor) in Dasca’s Apartment- Aftermaths are Messy

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“Sure,” Eela said, grabbing a mug painted in a swirl of colours that looked handmade and pouring herself a cup of coffee. She moved around the large island and past the round dining table into the corner of the apartment. The sitting area formed a U with a central coffee table, flanked by a couple plants and a vase of flowers on the table. Eela sat in the corner nearest the windows where she could look out into the part of her patio set up as a lounge space, careful not to spill her drink. She leaned back, letting her body sink a bit into the cushions, bringing one foot up to rest on the edge.

Mika picked a spot not quite across from Eela where she could easily see and focus on her, folding her hands in her lap.

“I don’t know where to start, except that the metaphor I used when the Governor came to check in on me seems to still apply. My ex-husband showed up and essentially launched a spread of torpedoes into my life. I’m now standing amongst the debris and trying to figure out if I’m seeing pieces that have a truth revealed, or if I can keep some of those pieces as part of happy memories. And the answer is… confronting.” She sipped her coffee.

~Eela

Mika nodded slowly. She had seen the video and Eela’s response to it. She took a short moment to think and pick her response, “And why is the answer confronting?” She leaned forward slightly, listening intently.

~ Mika

Her lungs filled with air, expanding her ribs and Eela took a moment to ground herself in the sensation. “Because… I think there’s been a great deal of denial on my part. And maybe it’s a little bit of hindsight, but It was easy to see earlier issues in my marriage as just being the sort of difficult times all couples go through, and blaming my marriage actually falling apart on my accident. On how I was after. But…” She frowned and sipped again. “It started before that. My friend Roger hinted that he thought as much and I wanted to discount it, but no, I think he’s right. And so now I’m left with the memories of a forty-year marriage that had a component of manipulation that makes me very uncomfortable. And sad. And angry.”

~Eela

“Sometimes we see a lot more in hindsight than we do during a situation. Oftentimes, those on the outside can also see a situation more clearly than we can ourselves.” It was something Eela probably already knew, but Mika found saying it anyway to be helpful. “Can you give me some examples of what felt manipulative to you?”

~ Mika

Eela took her time contemplating this, though some of the examples were far more obvious. “So, Cory and I both held our careers to be very important to us and before we got married we were very honest about our need to have it be a priority. We both knew that sometimes one person would have to compromise for the other, but he married a Starfleet officer and I was very clear about what that might look like. So over the years there were times when we lived apart, sometimes by choice because he had a project he was working on, other times by necessity, like during the Dominion War where it was safer for him and the kids to be on Earth.”

“But one of these times was when I was a Captain. Caridee had already left for university and so it was myself, Cory and our teenage son Jourin. The Steadfast got orders to do a six-month exploration stint in the Gamma Quadrant, which I was really excited for, but Cory was less enthused. He didn’t want to be so far from Earth and it was a bit more complicated for the job he had at the time. So I told him he wasn’t obligated to go with us if it was going to be that much of a problem. So then he said that he and Jourin could go spend the six months on Earth. To which I asked why Jourin had to go and why he couldn’t stay with me. Cory didn’t think he’d want to, at which point I asked if he had even asked his son, and of course he had not. So we gave Jourin the choice. I should point out that Jourin and I have had a complicated relationship and we had a rough start him and I when he was a baby. We’ve never been as close and his sister and I are. So he surprised me by being excited about the ship’s mission and he wanted to stay. Cory was… miffed. I think he didn’t expect his son to want to spend that time with me alone.”

“So Cory went to Earth, and the Steadfast went on its mission. And it was a great adventure for Jour and I. There were some difficult moments, but I felt like we actually bonded. But Cory was oddly quiet during those months. Distant. Yes, we were farther out and we couldn’t have as instant communication, but he barely sent any messages and when we did communicate he was finding fault in whatever was going on. Now I can see that he was jealous that Jourin and I were actually getting closer and it was like he was trying to find a way to punish me for it, because it somehow infringed upon his relationship with our son. We had a goddamn semi-monogamous marriage and there was no jealously with our other relationships, so I think that’s why maybe I didn’t see it at the time. But after Jourin also left for university on Earth and later spent more time with Cory, I noticed that we lost that bond again. And we’ve never gotten it back. If anything, it’s worse now.”

~Eela


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