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Side Sim: holodeck (Open to anyone)

Posted Oct. 19, 2020, 10:06 p.m. by Lieutenant Kadence Argona (Counselor) (Melissa Aragon)

Posted by Ensign “Morning Bright” (Scientist) in Side Sim: holodeck (Open to anyone)

Posted by Lieutenant Kadence Argona (Counselor) in Side Sim: holodeck (Open to anyone)

Posted by Captain Remy Boudreaux (CO) in Side Sim: holodeck (Open to anyone)
Posted by… suppressed (3) by the Post Ghost! 👻

SNIP

“What?’ He said rather annoyed at all the attention. ” Can’t I just watch in peace?” He turned away from her, trying to hide the pain and anger he felt. He stood up and walked away from Kadence, his back to her and he walked to a corner of the holodeck.

-Cel

Kadence let him move away before standing up. “Why do you want to watch it, Cel?” Her tone was simple and kind. It was as if she was genuinely interested in what he was watching and why? “Is it something I can watch, too, sometime? Something that makes you feel good?”

She stood between him and the door in case he moved towards it. She didn’t want him leaving the holodeck upset this badly.

Kadence
CNS

“It’s my greatest failure.” Celador replied scornfully, his back still to the counselor. “It lead to my incarceration. So no “He snapped. “It’s not something that makes me feel good.”

-Cel

“But you aren’t incarcerated any longer. In fact, you serve on a ship designed to help in such situations, aren’t you?” She kept her voice calm and even as if they were simply chatting about anything in the world. “And if it doesn’t make you feel good, then why do you do it?” It was a simple curiosity question. “Surely you don’t like being nearly killed in a fight, or left drifting alone in space, either. So why not create and endure those simulations? Why this one?”

Kadence
CNS

“You see, I’ve nearly been killed in many fights, and been left alone drifting in space. Both of those situations were beyond my control, this failure wasn’t.” He retorted angerly.

-Cel

Not yet entirely sure which failure he was referring to, she shook her head. “Unless you are the one who killed them directly, I highly doubt this was all your fault, Cel.” She was slowly beginning to step towards him. He needed to let this out. Whether he lashed out or broke down, she’d be there for him and help him thru this. “How can you claim this particular failure was all your fault?”

Her voice remained calm as she took a couple steps towards him.

Kadence
CNS

bump 9.6.20

Celador shrugged. “Doesn’t matter.” He looked up at nothing. “I used to be somebody. I used to have power, prestige, respect. I got the girls and was in positions of leadership. Thousands of lives rested on my decisions.” He laughed sadly. “Now I’m nothing. I hide, a coward, avoiding social situations staying away from responsibilities, hoping that everyone forgets me. “

He turned to her. “You can’t help me, there is nothing to help anymore.”

-Cel

Kadence smiled. “I don’t think you realize just how much of that isn’t true, Cel. Do you ever stop to think of where you are? I mean the Wolverine. Have you considered what we are and what we do? This isn’t a crew of misfit lost cadets from the Academy with wet necks and shaking knees. We are a ship of folks with specialties ranging the gambit of skills that most ships in the Fleet and in the Federation, lack considerably.” She held her hands out to encompass the ship around them. “We do things, singularly and in union that DO affect thousands of lives. You don’t realize it, but you do. And if you ever doubt it, I’ll be happy to show you your record since your release. Every mission on this ship and in your life has impacted folks. And your security skills on this ship help see to the safety of those of us in need.” She stepped close enough to touch his arm a moment before dropping it.

“You don’t know this, but I trust you to tell you. I have… skills.. that sometimes call me away from the ship for days at a time. I need someone back here I can trust to have my back when security and silence may be the difference between my life or death or that of another. I know you had an issue in your past and you feel you are still paying for it. But as far as this ship goes, it’s in your past, paid in full. So if the Captain and XO approve, I’d like to ask you to be one of those that is an anchor for me when I’m away. Do you think you could handle that?” She doubted Reilly would be happy with her asking Cel without asking him first. But there it was, already done. And she never mentioned the XO being in the same line of work, so he couldn’t claim she was putting him in jeopardy as well.

Kadence
CNS

IC: Cel looked at Kadence. “You not understanding, but that’s not surprising.” He shook his head. “Now, leave me alone with my nightmares.” He turned his back to her.

-Cel

Kadence sighed. “I’m not going to leave you with your nightmares, Cel. Please. If I’m not understanding, help me to.” Without realizing she was continuing out loud, she murmured, “Maybe it would help with my own…”

She stood between him and the door and waited. If he wanted to watch it, she’d let him. But she wasn’t about to leave him alone. “Do you truly want me to replay that again?” She asked softly.

Kadence
CNS

“I failed to stop her…their deaths. I could have done more, I didn’t. Thousands died because of me.” He said, looking at her, a tear rolling down his cheek. “Then I blacked out and not to long after I’m in prison for murder.” There was a lot missing in that explanation, but he wasn’t lying.

-Cel

That was the rub. He had missing memories and was blamed for it. She had met others like this and knew that the missing memories were the worst. Many, once they knew the missing pieces, were either accepting of what happened, or managed to clear themselves. It was that missing time she had to contend with first.

Stepping closer to the man, she smiled and once more her voice was calm. “Then we need to find what happened in that missing time and clear you.” Most of the details weren’t in his jacket, the redactions so heavy it may have been more clear if they had simply removed the file all together. But hearing this from him, she knew she would have to pull some strings to get answers. But it was worth it if it cleared him. And would be worth it if it at least answered questions for him.

“Cel… if I can find that missing time. Find the reason you were charged, would you work with me to find it?” He had to agree. If she went against him, it would make matters worse. But something told her, he would. All that he wanted was the answers. And she had the feeling she was the first person to be willing to find them for him.

Kadence
CNS

OOC: I was really enjoying this thread, but unfortunately Christopher has had to leave the ship for personal reasons, so you can let this thread die. :(

Terry (gotcha… I’ll just have him leave and let it go then))

Kadence heard the growl a moment before the man spun around and stalked out of the holodeck without a further comment. Kadence sighed and closed the holodeck down as she left. The recording of what he had been watching she had sent to her quarter to add to his file. With luck, she could find him another time and make a bit more progress.

Moving out of the holodeck, she palmed the console to let others know it was available and went to her own quarters. Maybe Reilly would be free for dinner, she thought to herself.

Kadence
CNS

“Can I be of any further assistance, Counselor?” Came the deep resonant voice of The Gnall. “Morning Bright” had taken up post as promised, but as he hadn’t been called had allowed Cel to leave.

“Morning Bright”

She felt horrible as she turned into the hall and saw “Morning Bright”. “Oh, Morning Bright! I’m so sorry. Things never really went sideways, as you can see. He’s not gonna hurt himself or anyone else at this moment, so he’s fine for now. I hope I haven’t kept you overly long from anything. I do appreciate you staying. Never know how things may go, sometimes.”

Her smile was gentle, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. Lots of folks on board had demons. And she was finally getting to see some of them.

Kadence
CNS


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